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This is goodbye.

Unread post by JCVD1 » Sun Sep 02, 2018 11:18 am

This is it.

I'm leaving the server because its been beyond repair to my eyes and from this point investing time and energy into further drama and ooc crap this server is plagued with, would be insanity.

I am going to be honest.

Life has turned very sour, very fast for me. Divorce is on the way, I'm a single dad with ADHD,with my daughter full-time with me and i work nights as a baker. I've had to cut my work hours to be with my daughter and earning 400$ less a month.
The mother drained me of all my savings with her leaving.

5100$ all of it gone in less than a month.

I had to move in a friend's house rather than have a home for myself and my daughter so i can save up money.

I've contacted a couple of Ig friends, trying to sell my BGTSCC gear and gold to make ends meet without having to beg without giving anything in return. Someone went on to cry and bitch about it to the admins and the end result was the removal of my characters and being accused of owning shady items. Because in "good conscience" , they couldn't allow me to keep selling the thousands of hours I've played and spent here for others to enjoy...while others still funnel coins items and (#2) they gathered over the years to friends.

So, thanks to you.

I'd like to thank my closest friends on this server.

Herisheft that left sadly.
Nomster with whom I RPed extensively
Ghostly_Rose for being my favorite Evil person.
Whistler, my migar.(yes, migar. inside joke. )
Mausman. You magnificent handsome devil.
Vicala. Because Pirates.
YMHM, for being the master hound.
wolfshear for being my favorite aussie c*** !
CommanderKrieg, for being the best Captain a Pete can hope for.
And most of all,TarnishedSoul who is truly a nice, generous and beautiful person.

I probably forget many, don't take it personally if i did not name you.

So now, here's my paypal. .

Begging now since, it's not in the rules that it's forbidden to sell your crap, but it's against the rules... unless...that's too against the rules that isn't written.

Farewell to you all, I'm on discord if you wish to keep contact.

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Unread post by Tsidkenu » Sun Sep 02, 2018 11:45 am

We never got to RP anywhere near as much as I wished, but I just want to thank you for playing Kahanak for as long as you did. The server has sorely missed his villainy in your absence, and will continue to do so.

I will pray that you will receive all the help you need, monetary and otherwise, from members of your own family, friends, this community and any other charitable organisation in your city who can help you in tangible ways. It's a truly humbling experience and you have some heart for sharing it with us.
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Unread post by flyingchair » Sun Sep 02, 2018 12:15 pm

I ran into you a few times on Melvor when i played him, dunno if you remember but thats not important. I just wanna say that you really rp'ed a convincing and intimidating red wizard, kudos for that!

I hope you survive what you're going through right now, for you and your daughter, never give up! :mrgreen:

I'm Flyingchair on discord if you wanna talk and i would be willing to send some money your way if you really need it. :D
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Unread post by azermas » Sun Sep 02, 2018 12:46 pm

I'm sorry for you , life is a bitch :/
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Unread post by Valefort » Sun Sep 02, 2018 1:56 pm

Bon courage à toi, j'espère que tout ira mieux bientôt.
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Unread post by Sun Wukong » Sun Sep 02, 2018 4:35 pm

I hope things will work out for you in the end.
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Unread post by Maecius » Sun Sep 02, 2018 4:48 pm

Wishing you only the best, JCVD1. Once you pull through the storm, and I am confident you will make your way through this, I hope you'll consider checking back in on us here. Even if only to let us know you're OK.

In the meantime, don't be afraid to ask for help. Family, friends, welfare and charity programs, they are all there to help you. And there's no shame in letting others help you. We're only stronger together. Just don't let the bad blot out the good in your life, and keep pushing forward.

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Unread post by Infernal Dave » Sun Sep 02, 2018 10:12 pm

We talked about this when I first came back to the server a few weeks ago, so not much more to add other than good luck with everything man.
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Unread post by Steve » Mon Sep 03, 2018 2:41 am

I'm saddened to read about the result of your current BGTSCC situation, but much more saddened to read about your RL situation. I realize that words are far from real and substantial help. I appreciated the majority of our game-related interactions, and it is a pity there will be no more, as you say. Strength!
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Unread post by kleomenes » Mon Sep 03, 2018 7:14 am

I'm sorry to hear of the RL troubles JCVD1. We haven't always seen eye to eye in the past but you brought energy to the server that made me wish we did more often.

I hope you get RL things sorted out.
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Unread post by chad878262 » Mon Sep 03, 2018 7:57 am

Sorry for your troubles JC. Keep faith and you'll push through.
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Unread post by Touri » Mon Sep 03, 2018 8:49 am

I wish you all the best and that the things work out fine very soon. Take care and good bye, JCVD1.

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Unread post by LISA100595 » Mon Sep 03, 2018 11:20 am

Hang in there man, I been in that situation before.... You're doing the right thing taking care of your daughter. Everything will work out, have faith.
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Unread post by TarnishedSoul » Mon Sep 03, 2018 12:27 pm

HM and I are always here for you. :)

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Unread post by JCVD1 » Mon Sep 03, 2018 3:16 pm

Thank you all for the good word, and to the generous soul who donated. I was not expecting it and i was truly touched.