Update Status for athornforyourheart
Posted: Mon May 06, 2019 1:03 pm
Hello BG Community,
Some may have noticed a silence on my end and sudden repel from Discord and other media outlets. Because I love this community and its players I thought i would share something with you all. Please bare in mind, this message is not to provoke sympathy but more or less help people understand why Media Team has been silent on certain topics and also share with you a real life issue.
I am a United States Veteran. I served two combat tours in Iraq one tour in Afghanistan. I was an infantry team leader, grenadier, 240 Bravo machine gunner, breachman, and Bradley Operator. I wore many hats to cover down on fallen / injured comrades. When I returned, I didn't know I returned with mental trauma. I thought I was okay... I refused help, many times. I thought medicating myself and drinking profusely was a normal reaction. Eventually, I stopped drinking as much after my son was born... but as most would agree, leaving mental trauma untouched can be a very dangerous thing.
I finally decided to get help a few years back - I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression. Great, I've been labeled. I didn't much like that and even until this day I am both embarrassed and ashamed of it. I'll try and make long story short and say.... I stopped treatment... and my PTSD got worse.
Last week, my PTSD and mental trauma caught up with me... and it caused me to emotionally hurt someone whom I consider one of the most dear in my life ... and in turn, it has effected me.
I suppose what I ultimately wanted to say is that I've been away dealing with this issue. I am now seeking the help I needed back then. For myself and for those special someone's in my life because I matter. This i am learning.
I will slowly return to the community and go back to creating your armors and content when I am a bit better and I want to say very soon because I refuse to sit around moping. I will be vigilant in my recovery, but patient at the same time. For those I never responded to in BG discord and messages here, please understand, it was nothing personal... I just didn't know how to reply.
I never really speak of my PTSD but am hoping for change... and being open about it, I feel, is a great start for me.
I hope to rejoin you all in game very soon however as I hope to be back to regular routine again.
Thank you,
athornforyourheart
Aiden Vega
Some may have noticed a silence on my end and sudden repel from Discord and other media outlets. Because I love this community and its players I thought i would share something with you all. Please bare in mind, this message is not to provoke sympathy but more or less help people understand why Media Team has been silent on certain topics and also share with you a real life issue.
I am a United States Veteran. I served two combat tours in Iraq one tour in Afghanistan. I was an infantry team leader, grenadier, 240 Bravo machine gunner, breachman, and Bradley Operator. I wore many hats to cover down on fallen / injured comrades. When I returned, I didn't know I returned with mental trauma. I thought I was okay... I refused help, many times. I thought medicating myself and drinking profusely was a normal reaction. Eventually, I stopped drinking as much after my son was born... but as most would agree, leaving mental trauma untouched can be a very dangerous thing.
I finally decided to get help a few years back - I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression. Great, I've been labeled. I didn't much like that and even until this day I am both embarrassed and ashamed of it. I'll try and make long story short and say.... I stopped treatment... and my PTSD got worse.
Last week, my PTSD and mental trauma caught up with me... and it caused me to emotionally hurt someone whom I consider one of the most dear in my life ... and in turn, it has effected me.
I suppose what I ultimately wanted to say is that I've been away dealing with this issue. I am now seeking the help I needed back then. For myself and for those special someone's in my life because I matter. This i am learning.
I will slowly return to the community and go back to creating your armors and content when I am a bit better and I want to say very soon because I refuse to sit around moping. I will be vigilant in my recovery, but patient at the same time. For those I never responded to in BG discord and messages here, please understand, it was nothing personal... I just didn't know how to reply.
I never really speak of my PTSD but am hoping for change... and being open about it, I feel, is a great start for me.
I hope to rejoin you all in game very soon however as I hope to be back to regular routine again.
Thank you,
athornforyourheart
Aiden Vega