Re: The Broken Goblet
Posted: Thu May 23, 2024 6:10 am
Mirror of Crows
"If you look in the mirror and don't see yourself,
then consider your lacking of your soul.
But if you look away from the mirror,
and see yourself, then you better catch your wondering soul."

Some humans think that when a person dies, a crow carries their souls to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens to a person, that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes, the crow can bring that soul back to put the wrong things right. In true within our realm, that is not the case. But when I look around Roaringshore and see the many crows, more so when there use to be a witch that walked around the Shore, I cant help but wonder if such a fairy tale holds a bit of truth. Being a scavenger that they are, their always lingering around the many corpses as if awaiting for another. Yet even when all the flesh are picked from the bones, the crows still linger. What if...sometimes...they do carry souls to their intended destinations? Or return them to the realm of living to right a wrong.

What if...their is a soul far too troubled to reach its destination, and instead claws it's way back to it's corpse? Or does it crawl? Perhaps the fairy tales has some truth, and that a crow carries the unrested soul back to the realm of living. But even if it was all true, I question as to why even the ones deserving of death for their many sins in life, are too allowed to return? Is such a treatment fair to all? Would a man like myself also return if my death was a great sadness along with a history of great sins? My great many sins are only known to the Gods, and even though I'm not a religious man, I wonder does my actions please a particular God? Even if I dont worship them? Or does only the one I would give praise too bask in joyful glee upon seeing my list of sins?

I've notice I have avoided looking into mirrors ever since I paid a visit to Kazaiev Dovrik within his cell. His words still gnaw in the back of my head... "You are very much like me, Sel. This is why you are so fascinated. You feel the same need as I do... for perfection. This insatiable fire.... and it is consuming you." Why does looking at myself trouble me? I know my own strengths and I know my own weaknesses. Surely I don't fear myself. Unless its something else that I fear. Ah yes that...

I walk upon the world as a man with many sins, and I've always consider it perfection that no one knew of them. Yet when I look at myself, it is I that knows. It is I that sees each and every sin that I had ever committed. Is it really fear? Or is that my excuse for guilt? Or is it shame? Or am I like the crow, black of heart and feel neither wrong or right, for I am merely living out my purpose in the land of Toril, playing out my part in this realm. Perhaps that is why some people think me a man with a good heart, or a evil scoundrel. They are confused in whom I am, or rather what I am. They look upon me at face value, and see only what I want them to see, think of me what I want them to think of me. Like crows when you do something for them, they later return with a boon thinking a helping gesture should be returned. Yet they dont realize that in the end, that very crow will likely deliver their soul to where it needs to go, emotionlessly, without hesitation, for the crow is only serving out its intended purpose.

"Whether a crow sits upon a tree of sparrows or upon a tree of ravens,
it will always talk to a fox from a perch"
"If you look in the mirror and don't see yourself,
then consider your lacking of your soul.
But if you look away from the mirror,
and see yourself, then you better catch your wondering soul."

Some humans think that when a person dies, a crow carries their souls to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens to a person, that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes, the crow can bring that soul back to put the wrong things right. In true within our realm, that is not the case. But when I look around Roaringshore and see the many crows, more so when there use to be a witch that walked around the Shore, I cant help but wonder if such a fairy tale holds a bit of truth. Being a scavenger that they are, their always lingering around the many corpses as if awaiting for another. Yet even when all the flesh are picked from the bones, the crows still linger. What if...sometimes...they do carry souls to their intended destinations? Or return them to the realm of living to right a wrong.

What if...their is a soul far too troubled to reach its destination, and instead claws it's way back to it's corpse? Or does it crawl? Perhaps the fairy tales has some truth, and that a crow carries the unrested soul back to the realm of living. But even if it was all true, I question as to why even the ones deserving of death for their many sins in life, are too allowed to return? Is such a treatment fair to all? Would a man like myself also return if my death was a great sadness along with a history of great sins? My great many sins are only known to the Gods, and even though I'm not a religious man, I wonder does my actions please a particular God? Even if I dont worship them? Or does only the one I would give praise too bask in joyful glee upon seeing my list of sins?

I've notice I have avoided looking into mirrors ever since I paid a visit to Kazaiev Dovrik within his cell. His words still gnaw in the back of my head... "You are very much like me, Sel. This is why you are so fascinated. You feel the same need as I do... for perfection. This insatiable fire.... and it is consuming you." Why does looking at myself trouble me? I know my own strengths and I know my own weaknesses. Surely I don't fear myself. Unless its something else that I fear. Ah yes that...

I walk upon the world as a man with many sins, and I've always consider it perfection that no one knew of them. Yet when I look at myself, it is I that knows. It is I that sees each and every sin that I had ever committed. Is it really fear? Or is that my excuse for guilt? Or is it shame? Or am I like the crow, black of heart and feel neither wrong or right, for I am merely living out my purpose in the land of Toril, playing out my part in this realm. Perhaps that is why some people think me a man with a good heart, or a evil scoundrel. They are confused in whom I am, or rather what I am. They look upon me at face value, and see only what I want them to see, think of me what I want them to think of me. Like crows when you do something for them, they later return with a boon thinking a helping gesture should be returned. Yet they dont realize that in the end, that very crow will likely deliver their soul to where it needs to go, emotionlessly, without hesitation, for the crow is only serving out its intended purpose.

"Whether a crow sits upon a tree of sparrows or upon a tree of ravens,
it will always talk to a fox from a perch"


































































