Marmeia: Start to Belive

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(( This is more of Marmeia's conversion from a faithless into the belief of gods and goddesses, one, in particular, Silvanus. Through her study into Druidism with her mentor Wolf. More for myself but everyone else can read and watch how she learns as well))

Progress of Beliefs ;

Having been asked by wolf to grow a small seedling that was dropped in her hand, find somewhere safe and take care of it. Marmeia having felt a slight draw, though unable to explain it to plant it near the Silvanus shrine outside of the friendly in. Visiting at least once a day to see to its needs be watering it and make sure that it's still getting sunlight and remains unharmed by people. The sprout, already starting to grow healthy and strong with her careful care. Having heard about Silvanus himself through her mentor and what should await her if she were to believe in this after life. The divines dogma and that what he stands for, Marmie didn't seem to have the understanding about this and resigns to her own greed for riches.

Wolf and Marmeia take a walk to the Lions Way druid circle, more conversation of it as she's asked how her plant is growing now is a finger length tall with three small leaves. She is still unaware of what sort of plant this is she's been caring for. Her understanding of the dogma shows a little progress toward feeling the space around her. Wolf believes an omen appeared before them in the shape of an aloe shrub in the center of the circle, calming the tielfing to believe in the magic of the circle partly. Allowing her to tap into simple spells, the omen of peril being one, seeing a vast healthy forest(Though ingame it was Danger: you see a vast forest violently burning to cinders). She was also able to manipulate vines and roots into an entangling space. Marmeia shows a more evident understanding and a sense of balance inside herself and walks away with a single leaf from the aloe shrub that grew in the center of the circle.

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Having spent the night and the early hours in the lion way druidic circle, she awakens to find that the shrub was simply gone. Feeling refreshed and renewed slightly she quickly starts to practice some of the magic from the night before. Once Wolf returned he thinks it's time for the next step, taking bestial shapes. Marmeia, not understanding how to simply become fails at her first attempt to take the simple form of a deer, self-doubt creeps back into her mind. Stress increasing, as two attempts later at different shapes watching her mentor shifting with ease, yet still a tiefling. Wolf finding that there is a guilt over her mind, distracting her, tried to help her through the veil. Through pushing the guilt aside she's able to take her first form, a feline shape orange, and black. At first strange for her the word hard to form even in the animal. With Marmeia's willpower and strength in the oak father growing, she's able to return to her true form without as much trouble. Taking a different form now, that of a wolf, though considerably smaller than that of her mentors. She's having a grasp of simple shapes, and better understanding of trying to be faithful to the oak father, her belief strengthens further

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Marmeia once again catching up with wolf, though on her way to the now hand high stalk she's been caring for. As she speaks with him she feels something like before a comfort nearing the statue as well as the circles dotted around. Wolf feeling as though she was ready encourages her to try and speak to the oak father. A shade of doubt before talking to the stone figure, unknown to the tiefling at the time of conversation as one sided as it was, was in druidic. Before turning back to wolf who told her she was speaking it. With that she was granted the ability to access further stronger spells, the veil of doubt pulled from her mind.

One the spells were tested and she grew more skilled with them, Wolf had started summoning greater elementals to help her study them and learn their shape. Though a few attempts later she took the form of a living rock, slow and heavy but in control enough to return to her self. Next, that of the very air, she struggled with getting the idea of 'being' air at first before she lets loose her doubt and takes the form of air, a slight discomfort being an empty space at first before returning back to her form. Being told she would learn water and fire at a later day. She was told that her beast form would also grow with her faith in the oak father strengthening.

To close the day after seeing them spawned Marmeia was asked to seek elemental air like he had. She asked a few questions doubting she was able to command them, but it was wolf who corrected her thoughts by simply asking and not commanding. Marmeia was able to summon an earth elemental and was able to again communicate with it through once again on a one sided conversation before releasing the earth back. Tired and well spent the pair depart back to their duties, marmeia going back to study and learning.

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Another lesson, another chance for the mentor to learn more about his student. Though not was he was expecting. The pair travel to lions way once more but down to the coast line where the next training was to be held. The tiefling quickly growing weary to the water becoming clear quickly a very distinct distaste or even fear of it. Wolf, thought to ease the women into the water elemental shape by trying to show her the water wasn't going to damage her. Highly reluctant and fighting the whole steps through, the mentor managed to get her to her thighs in the water before she demands to take her back out. Marmeia doesn't learn to take the water elemental shape that day and will have to instead get over her seemly deathly fear of water.


Wolf instead choosing to Take the tiefling into another lesson of the elements this time of the fire, but even he was wary what it might do to a devil-born if she gains too much comfort into the all consuming fire. Though the lesson had a moment of interruption by a masked figure and a familiar orc running toward them with a flock of chickens chasing them. The beasts were slain and Gywn and Wirg stayed for the lesson. Both Wirg and wolf explaining that the elements are like emotions, from wolf a consuming force and Wirg a rage. Marmeia didn't struggle with taking the form of the fire elemental. Even going as far as learning to increase and decrease the size of the shape and summon the essence of fire into a companion. Wolf seems weary of her comfort with the fire, the party then departs and Marmeia is left to learn and practice more of the element of fire.

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Marmeia and wolf leave to once again the lion way druidic circle, the next lesson making a close bonded friend and companion. Wolf trying to explain the druids having close bestial companion loyal to them, and those that don't. Believing she wouldn't have one for herself, still afraid of peoples opinion of the tieflingelling. Told to feel and see beyond what she sees and into her distant companion somewhere in the wilds. To contact him or her wolf had her commune with nature. Finding herself indeed in different eyes, a silver night in the tree tops on a hunt for the distant deer. A name whispers in her mind, before calling it channeling the binding feeling. A flash of sleek black sure and a powerful body as a black panther appears, powerful and agile. Calling his name quietly again he turns to her examining her as she tried to make friends with him, at the time he didn't seem interested and wanders off. Wolf reminding her he was still a wild animal as she nods in agreement still feeling the panther like a brush of feather across the back of her mind.

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(( A dream I had, made into Character ))

" I sat under the small tree near the fire, listening to the people coming and going, I lost track of exact words being used it all just started to meld into gibberish. Perhaps I lost myself somewhere along the way this day, it was hard to understand them faces started to blur with so many of them ever changing. Then I heard something a voice something, maybe it was just a feeling drawing on me like an instinct but not like I've been having with my own inner war.

Getting up my feet lighten, feeling like I was stepping on air, forward without much of a thought a destination I didn't know. My for shifts without thinking like I've had to before, standing on four paws spines from my back a canine maw in front of my eyes. By paws lurch forward into a sprint, breath becoming hot but I wasn't tired, watching following this feeling but I can't stop myself. Across the bridge yelling, I think it was the guards on the bridge. Next, I was on a farm, the corn a green blur to my left, hills then. I didn't know where I was going I didn't care, I could feel the wind in my fur lapping on my face it felt peaceful.

When I found myself in a forest, my peace I felt inside only expands. I know this place Wolf took me here before traveling with the plants, a fountain in the clearing where I first learned what it meant to be a druid where I first listened to the forest and the whispers. Something caught my eye I haven't noticed before as I found myself walking over to it. touching the tree trunk finger tips brushing over something, markings runes becoming clearer the more I looked at them. Nature, tranquility, calm flowing waters. By eyes were drawn to the fountain.

Once again my body moves without me, looking at the figure perched on the top, a women, Eldath. Shaking my head recalling what wolf had said about her. Mind twists a spinning feeling looking at the calm waters. My reflection, a devil staring back at him. I tried to pull away, I couldn't a was frozen I could feel my skin crawl trying to crawl off. I fall into the waters of the fountain, ripples splash at the edges before returning to calm still mirror like waters. I was drowning I couldn't move every fear creeping up to the surface, I scream bubbles no sound sinking far too deep.

That feeling again a hand brushing my cheek, my panic calms suddenly as I drift on the still currents, tranquility would be a word I would use. My devil looks back at me over my shoulder holding me down against its chest. I fight and wither to escape then my inner war continues. The water kicks up spinning drawing me down, Balance. More bubbles escape, acceptance. I couldn't think at first before that clam feeling washed over me, even as my devil was trying to drown me. I had to accept myself if I expected people to accept me find a peace and balance with in myself first.

I closed my eyes, opening myself up like I could drink the water into every pore. Feeling the water shift, opening my eyes again now on the surface on my back looking at the trees green splashes against blue and white. I could hear nature again the birds and the breeze rustle through the trees. I close my eyes, once I open them again I find myself laying in the grass dry. Confused I sat up and looked around a golden light cast on the figure.

The sound of growls drawing my attention else where gnoll coming to this sacred area. My form simply losing into shape drawing on moisture from the soil and grass, I became what I feared for so long. Water, the creatures chased off drenched and wounded before reforming myself into what I was.

I Am Marmeia,
I am tiefling,
I am Druid"

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Marmeia thinking she wanted to share the new findings with the one she considered close not as a friend but to her own heart. Bringing him to the reaching woods to show him what she had learned in her time away from him, her tie of meditations. Talking with him seemed simple enough with what she's been doing and why she was away from him so long. but it was getting harder to keep secrets that she simply can't speak of to him. Fade to Black.

Waking after rest she looks at him before a doubt started to once again spread across her mind, shattering the delicate mask she had placed to guard herself, fleeing in the wind before reforming into a dire bear attacking the man before the bear in engulphed in flames turning to a being of flame, the cave going up in smoke and flame the man inside as she felt a coward and weak.

Luckily for the tiefling, he was able to escape before finding the ruins of her trail, grass smoldering ash, trees with burning scars, gnolls burning fur and flesh. finding the women back at the fountain curled up and crying. approaching her weary of how she might react now to him, "I... uh.. " he seems to walk over to her... seemingly concerned. " They warned me of the consuming rage I- am sorry I lost control I was so- mad and I- just don't " looking at the grass.

" I killed in anger and I destroyed nature, I shouldn't have I came here away from you from them, but I- I wanted this I wanted everything but- " shaking her head " I shouldn't have this any of this maybe I should just stop while I still can. I already unburied memories I tried to forget it hurts. now am just hiding behind self-pity of what I am even a stranger saw it" he just look at her in confusion, but decides to go and sit next to her if she allowed it, placing his arms around her tiny shoulders.

mermeia leans into his side " am weak, maybe we just shouldn't if I can't even keep myself in control around us " standing up looking down at the man now. " please don't tempt me now with all this, it would go against everything that wolf has tried to show me, I'd be no better than the shadow druids, Silvanus would strip me if I destroyed nature and the balance I've worked so hard to start with myself and everyone else." he looks up at her then and asks "So.. what.. do we do now then?" Marmeia looks at the ruins left behind her. " I don't know. maybe we should just stop as we are, I can keep your secrets and bring them to my grave if need be " holding out a small dagger of her own holding it up point at her chest " I'm not sure I can do this anymore you were right am just a rookie I don't know what am doing I got to invested into a single mark now am lost, I burned myself in all this I don't know what to do. "

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** A warn letter left behind **

Dear Wolf,

I'm sorry that I wasn't completely honest with you, I should have just come out with it. I'm sure by now you've noticed the growth and smelled him on me. He's not a bad man like everyone is painting him to be, maybe I'm just blind to the evil now because of the love I have for him. I'm sure you've heard almost everything about me now, and I'll admit now that I was with 'them' I was foolish and carefree at that time. You pulled me back from making mistakes, maybe this still is one. I've talked to him about this, and am tired of hiding, the coast is a dangerous place to raise a family, I have decided to leave to a better place for us. I will cherish your teachings and if I can teach my little one as well, maybe someday I'll return to the coast. Please, as a last wish that you leave him be and not blame him for any of this. This was my choice and doing what is best for the three of us. Both of us have agreed to let it go.

Marmeia.