[Journal] Kelian Hannen: Phoenix

[Ailander]

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In the previous episodes

Reason to Fight (seriously when a friend of mine made me realize how close to this video was the story, almost thought was planned by him rotfl)

Again

*After looking Gaven leaving the room, the aasimar looked a bit around and slowly lied on the side to avoid for the wound to get worst, whincing from time to time that jolts of pain from the operated shoulder causes him. Finally able to rest a bit on the bed he closes his eyes to rest but the City was there around him...

memories of the days past came rashing back and he quickly opened his eyes again, giving a faint grumble. Holding his silver pendant murmurs*

"..wish you were here Nara.."

*as loneliness starts to get into him he shakes his head faintly and notice the writing desk on the other side.Slowly, he stood up to walk down to it and goes to sit, taking his journal and quill once again*

"Has been a while since i wrote a page in these lands...I never thought would had walked on here again. Last time i tried, the pain was too overwhelming so i just wandered hidden...except one time few days ago.

I have entered the temple of Ilmater like i used to in the past...sister Ashenie and lady Alyssia recognised me immediately. They both welcomed me with a smile. It surprised me.Has been so long since i have seen them smile...and i thought that many would had hated me for abandoning so many in the time of need..I know now that i had no fault for what happened. It took me this long journey and the words of so many to convince me of it... Meshkanet,Charlotte,Calvayas,Eleanor,Niramour, Lorial,Rosie..."

*can't help but make a warm smile at the memories of all those people coming back to him and takes a deep breath*

"..after them, many more learned i came back or new faces approached me after few people told them about me...they invited me to few parties and events, made gift...maybe all this love was worth the pain afterall.

Some things changed but other never changed in here. Oth still acted coldly, but i could not care less...he was able to wound me with his words only because i used to consider him a friend, both him and Nathan, now his gaze left me as indifferent as the rain does. Lil... "

*curls his lips and the smile diminish as a memory comes back but takes a deep breath*

"..Lylan'Synor is as beautiful as ever..she had been recently wounded and i still have her ghost hunting me, so i avoided approaching...i doubt she ever learned the truth or even care about what i think, and i am done trying to make her understand...i will reach out to make the question i need to be done for my investigation when she is better and stop..i think to know how it will go, but after that i will just move on. As said to Avintala not expecting anything from anyone here.

Oh right, Aunrae now became Avintae...Avhinta.."

"...i forgot to ask her how is written." *makes a faint chuckles* "Well, she still owe me some cakes..will ask her next time.."

"a dark elf..the first of her kind since millenia...i can't be happier for her. I had doubts sometimes about her but glad she made a brighter future for herself. She is still sharp around the edges and there are some gossips about her but eh...never really listened too much to that nonsense anyway and i promised Calvayas to not get involved so, no, i gave her my opinions and that's it."

"I promised him that i would had just faced my past and put these things to rest...especially if i am going throught with what i have in mind, i needed this. I hope Eleanor is still training and doesn't hold it on me too much...but i know she is defending the kingdom well on herself,that Iken and Rosie are enjoying their new life and everyone is safe despite the times we are going throught..."

*pouting a bit he mumbles about Naraviel again before continuing*

"Well now the bad news..i have been careless. I thought Ashtera weakened and in hiding...wouldn't had expected her to try something in broad daylight and without her minions...i thought she learned the lesson when tried this stunt at the church of Dawn's Rest. She outmaneuvered me this time...I am bed ridden and not sure what she has done to me. I can't muster my usual powers which, togheter with the weak link i have with my Lord now, leaves me far too vulnerable for my tastes....luckily i found some allies in the Triadic Church. They are good folk but...my diffidence is still high. Afterall, i am in the Gate...

*stopping from writing once again looks a moment to what he has written and reflect shaking softly his head* "..i will take this to the exhaustion.."

"...this place was not all that bad, in reality. I missed the chats with Edelgarde,Lucia,Gwyn and the people of Candlekeep, i missed the meeting with Tirion and Natariel or visiting En Dharasha, missed master Bhor and the Kraak..Talio,Ronja and Derik from the Bladestone Foundation,Jyn and the other knights of the Song of Dawn....Doron Amar..."

*can't help but slowly make another warm smile as recollect all the people, friends and foes, he gained along the way*

"..better close here for now. Is late and there is so much work to do even in this state...tomorrow i will probably do better in visit sister Ashenie. I don't doubt Gaven or Alexander skills, but she may know something more of my condition."

*after that would put the quill and the journal away, enduring the pain as he slowly walks to the bed and lay down to rest*

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Hello kind reader
If you are a player of the server as i suppose i would like to ask a courtesy: if you have fun in rp with gossiping,rumoring and, in general, intrigues and espionage rp, thank you but do not involve me. I went along with it last time, barely liking it, and got exhausted from it. If you want to move an evil toon and face Kelian fair and square, i will be happy to oblige as i did with Ashtera, Maistel and many others i have had good stories with...otherwise have fun on the server but i will walk away from those kind of situations this time

i wanted to include more people in this but i feared to make too many spoilers or affect someone rp with this, but i have not forgotten about you! otherwise i will tell you when you poke me eheh.

Thank you for the attention and thanks to everyone that i have met and welcomed me back!

[Ailander]

Spring Wind (it has eng lyrics, but if you don't like jap, just skip this)

*After walking outside the temple, as the first rays of the day hit the city that begins to bustle with life again, he slowly and painfully reached for the bench in the main square. Observing the butterflies fluttering around the huge tree makes him smile as few memories comes back rushing to him*

..I believe in you Kelian..-..i hope to become a good mother.. - ..you don't have to go..

*closes his eyes as those warm memories and the words that lingers with them pass by taking out his journal and piece of charcoal. Putting the book on his legs, would begin to write*

"Well...it was harder than i thought, but is done. I managed to talk about what it was with her, as brief and unanswering as it was.

It didn't hurt as much as i feared. I actually feel..better. Since those days i always wondered if she remembered them or would had left just behind..and got my answer, in a sense. It is warming, in a sense, that she was this straightforward with me. She is a good friend

But in order...the bad news is, whatever Ashtera did to me was not a simple wound. Sister Ashenie said that this wound is cursed and that is being hold back only by the area of dead magic. On the bright side, she gave a good solution for the problem and suggested me where to go.

The good news...well, i managed to have a long talk with Alyssia, meet again Sane and learn a bit more about the Triadic Knights. I feel so bad for abusing of their hospitality and i think will be best i don't do too much...maybe the people of House Cards and House Valindor would be happy of seeing me about again, but i doubt would be the same with other factions if i linger too much...well maybe i can put a good work for them with House Cards and House Valindor..."

*as Maevynn stops by to smile at him and move over he does the same to wave smiling back and going to write*

"..it hurted a bit thought more the fact that several, even people that i barely met in the past, calls me a hero, while those i cherished the most barely adresses me. Well, don't blame them and honeslty i keep not wanting being adressed as such. The things i did in the past i still believe are nothing to be worth praises of, even if thousands tell me the opposite. I left my friends hurt in the process of protecting the Coast...this is something that won't change.

Still, i have learned during my travel from Meshkanet, Niramour and Saiyu that i have done all that i could...the rest shall be left in the past and move on. Today i made a step in that direction further and i feel indeed..lighter. Even if you memories of her remains, i feel like there is no need for further talks.

One done, two remains.

I don't know how much time i have left and i still miss my garden of Morninglories and my friends but.."

*looks up as recognize someone in passing*

"..Veslana?"

*the knight waved to him to join a small gathering and with a smile the aasimar writes*

"..afterall, i could linger just a bit more here."

*closing his journal for the moment and moving ahead towards the board*

[Ailander]

Ray of Light

*Left alone under the glowing tree the aasimar lower his gaze as sulks a bit. Taking a deep breath from the nose goes to take up his journal and finding shelter now under the tree, he lift a moment his head as feels still her scent in the air a moment, almost expecting to see her pop out again like before...calming down only when the silence is all that surrounds him. Taking up the piece of charcoal goes to write*

"Has been..peculiar days. So, my wound is better thanks to sister Ashenie. Now i am traveling to Candlekeep with the aid of sir Declan and i am able to done my armor and do small exercise or works even if it gives a bit of pain from time to time.

I have been told that in this area now there was a glowing golden tree like the one i used to lay in solitude up on the Cloudpeaks...i know that my curiosity gets always the best of me, but even among the blood mud of the rain and the orcs assaults, this place was worth the trip. I have met two people today...a servant of Hoar, Roland. He was followed by a Revenant. He seems to not understand the dangers and perils that being followed by such a being brings with it. I destroyed it after warning him in vain, then managed to talk him out of relaying of such measures again, showing that he could do his duties even without such aids.

Then...while i was praying and resting along near the golden sapling, she arrived. I didn't recognize her at first. She was grumbling and asked me to help instead of singing...she reminded me of Song and couldn't help but approach. We talked a bit and in the end she revealed who she was."

*taps a bit with the charcoal on the page before continuing*

"..i'm torn..a part of me wants to yell at her all the truths i learned, make her suffer like she did when yelled all those horrible things at me back in ulgoth...the other just doesn't care..wish for us to go back to those days of laughters even despite the pain. I still can't help but seeing her like my sweet sister.

she is the only being that terrifies me and makes my heart beat in this world like this..

I didn't want to make her suffer, but can't talk with her normally with this weight on me...so i shutted up. We did some light chat but...couldn't help but feel like a huge divide in between. Just that, afterall, i am making it this time..."

*still her last words echoing in his head make him close his eyes*
"We still survived Kelian"

"..still i want to live...and i hope you do too.."

*after mumbling between himself just shakes his head writing few notes again*

"..maybe we will meet again under this golden tree. Maybe not. Time will tell...for now, i need to keep press on this path and journey to Candlekeep. There are some researches i promised Alexander and Sane to see done...who knows, maybe this will help her too."
*and after closing his book glimpse at his pendant, smiling more warmly and holding it close*

"..don't worry my heart, will be home soon..."

[Ailander]

Zero

*While the theological chat in front of him, inside the warm atmosphere of the Inn of Candlekeep, was going on and to which he listened still attentively, the aasimar began to scribble on the pages once again*

"Well..this travel back in the Coast is revealing itself more and more..warming than i thought. So, bad news first

Ashtera this time almost succeded in what she failed last time, a part of my soul is missing..Edelgarde insist is a tiny fragment but i don't know, i feel many of my powers missing...i doubt can be of aid to anyone like this. On the bright side, Edelgarde managed to break the curse and said that, in time, i can recover what i have lost. After that, i found again more people and allies welcoming back here at the Coast. I didn't say to many the real reasons that brought me here..only partial part of the story, but i hope to be able to tell them everything in time

I am still researching on the dragons matter and Edelgarde and both the people of Candlekeep and the Azure mages are helping with the researches. She also gave me a good direction where focusing my next efforts while they gather this. Meanwhile asked to captain Sinnoc what they know of the matter, but they were unaware. Gave him a brief report on the matter and told him will have kept in contact as soon as we have more news..i will have also to write a missive to brother Simon. I have left my report to Alexander but probably he would like to be updated in person.

As for more personal matters...today,as Alarielle learned of my conditions, offered help to train and put me back in shape. It..went actually better than i feared..? she trashed me around as i suspected did, but still managed to hold my ground few times."

*frowns a bit and sulks a little as he writes the next part*

"..Lylan'Synor walked in. She wasn't too happy to see us both, surprising me on that. She said to Alarielle to not use magic and me, at first, thought was banishing from the place. Alarielle reached me later saying that i misunderstood her words...i don't know, she did call me traitor several times in the past...but anyway, even if i was not banned, she is...it seems so we will have to spar somewhere else.

Is odd, though. It hurted, but not as before...couldn't help but feeling a sense of acceptance even if she called me like that again. Not because my thoughts leads me to 'is what i am' because 'is what they see me as'. It was..a strange realization that only now i arrive to grasp. Of course, not saying that she meant it that way now. I will have to talk with her to be sure of this...but still, i will keep training with Alarielle for the time being while i try to arrange the researches and reach the place Ed suggested to go.

..this conversation we are having here at the inn is warming, in many senses. Edelgarde has become a bright beacon in this fortress as i hoped and believed she would had been back then when i was witnessing her learning under Isabella. If i manage to remember more of what i learned on my journey, i will try to share those lessons with her. I know those secrets will be in good hands with her.

Alarielle is...softer? from last time we spoke back in Doron Amar. Even if may be hard to recognize. She and Lylan'Synor had a fight..but i tried to tell her to still reach her and not judge so hard her childhood friend. Is funny...i have changed during all these years, but this side of me never changed...this is just like back then with Talio and Gwyn..."

*shakes his head a bit as stops to answer something on the conversation for a while, then writes again*

"I have met a lot of new faces and good folks around..Alexander,Declan,Meredith...is quite warming and reassuring and learning of their hopes and dreams are things i will cherish and pray to Lathander that will happen. Now better go..tomorrow a new day awaits again and with a lot of work"

[Ailander]

Whatever it takes

*after finishing copy some part of the reports from Tiawynn and making a soft yawn, the Aasimar raises his head to look at the midday sun.*

"Hm almost time for the prayer.."

*still his glance stops a moment on his journal, scattered among the other books on the table, and decide to take it up to note the happenings of those days*

"Has been quite the tiring days, to say the least. Can't be grateful enough for the aid the people of Candlekeep are giving me since finding all of this would had required much more time on my own...have lived these days in a routine of, wake up, look into books, training with Alarielle, pray, research some more, talk with Edelgarde, sleep. I don't know how the monks here manages such, i am already on the verge of going crazy. Blessed be Edelgarde and Tiawynn for have shortened the times really"

*makes a bit of a playful smile thinking of the two but then goes back to write*

"My situation is still rather..worrysome. Have traveled along with Atria and Alari towards north to scout and check that the threats from there are not going to become a problem. Wih all the threats in the South last thing we need are again Devil Cultists going rampant. I couldn't help but feel...useless. Sometimes i holded my ground or to take care of the most armored fiends, but if Alarielle and Atria weren't there, i would had probably died at the very entrance of that cave."

"I promised Alari Ed and others to not get involved in major battles untill i fully recovered, but can't help feeling restless..especially when a battle happened just yesterday. I am sure it went well and they managed to repell the invaders at Doron Amar, still i worry for whom may have got wounded. I kept my promise to Rose, but i was not really able to enjoy that event..i don't regret going just like Maevynn party, both were quite fun and people were managing to leave their worries of these dark times behind but...feeling always so out of place in those now...can't help but wonder when it started."

"I have to remember to compliment both Maevynn and Rose again when i see them. They both gave their all in preparing those events and the details showed how much they cared...but despite that, it seemed like watching a living paint like those that Ar'handuel told me about back at the keep. Beautiful.Charming. Warming...but, just something that i can stand and watch. Is odd."

*shakes his head as he vents out that thought and goes back to write*

"Will ask Alarielle--.."

*stops a moment as few words of those he met those days cross his minds, making him smile warmly*

"Someone has to be responsabile and take care of this" *shaking her fist* "Someone has to stand up and fight for it!" "Someone have to care for their souls"

"..can't help but remember what many people used to say, back then, and how much they changed now.I wonder if the Sheriff was right..." *murmurs with an embarassed smile as he goes back to write*

---if we can spar two times at day now. Soon will leave Candlekeep and i know she and Atria will remain anchored around here for a while still, but will have to reach the City in a couple of days and talk with few people there.Atria is another of those that impressed me the most in her realization on this new path she is walking. Her words about change and future reminded me a bit about the vision i had in the past of the world...one of unity. I will pray to the Morninglord for her success in this journey. I feel like she will have even harder moments ahead of her, but she is strong. I am sure she will overcame them."

*looks out as a ray of sun attracted his attention as it was getting late*

"Time to go for now, my duties calls.

[Ailander]

For the missing

*With the rain pouring down on the hill, the night despite the light of the golden tree seems even more dark for the Aasimar at the moment. Raindrops watching his face and drenching his garments, he lies down under the tree on top of the hill to find some shelter from it. Looking towards the village, memories of the few weeks spended there rush towards his mind. Warm memories of laughters at the Jest, the few training sparring he has witnessed from the balcony near the river, the tree climbing that was sure noone had seen but in the end everyone did and laughed at his poor attempts.*

*His shoulders lowers slowly at the thought of the elves and dwarves that died a couple of days ago, togheter with the memories of those that, for a reason or another, were not in his life anymore. Rays of light hits his silver pendant, making his mind banish those thoughts as he grabs it and murmur a prayer to Lathander and think of his friends. After that, he looks at the rain pouring down from the frail shelter that was the tree branches and decide to take up his journal once again*

"..the battle of Doron Amar, whatever they say, it didn't go well. The village was saved, of course, thanksfully...but still almost one sixth of the population died. Forty elves.Not only Rangers. Atria gave me the news and..it was devastating for her and Alarielle. Katherine did told me there were some casualties among the citizens and the dwarves of Kraak Helzaak, but i didn't imagine so many.

Atria and Alari were furious in their pain.I tried to help them and be sure their fury was not unleashed on travelers or others...don't think i did a good job, since it was hard for me first, but i kept smiling and tried to make them think of something else. The only times when i touched the topic again was for asking what is a proper parting gift for the dead. I came here to mourn them. I remember a friend telling me that these trees are connected with the upper planes so, i want to believe, the song and thoughts will help them in their journey.

'Ghost'. or well the new person that is wearing the mask of Ghost, led me to a dreadful realization with the gods missing...but now, with a calmer mind, i want to believe she is not completely right. I want to believe that their souls will just be left waiting in the Fugue Plane."

*taps a bit the charcoal on the page taking a little deep breath*

"..one would think that after have seen, or caused, enough death, shed enough blood, it would get easy.It never does. Especially in those situations where you are powerless and can't do anything. I begin to understand now the words that Alari said two years ago. Would be just easier to just shut everything out...but i know that if Calvayas or Azuxriel catch me thinking of this, they would hit me with the biggest hammer they could find."

*snorts a bit amused at the fond memory shaking his head and trying to keep writing*

"They are right.Edelgarde,Alari,Ghost... I could do nothing in my current state and the only thing we can do to mourn the dead is press on and care for the living.

Yesterday despite the loss and the mourning, it was a good day. Have met a funny tiefling, Shana..she reminds me of Dace for some reason, and not only because of the sailor attire, the rapier or the funny accent...is something about her i can't really catch. Then i have met Kara, an ar-tel-quessir that, if i understood right, comes from the City of Splendor. Making this specific because she is another that tried to explain me that weird concept of 'the importance of how others sees you instead of what you do'. She even believed that i don't listen well for a moment, but this concept sounds so weird to me still today."

"The evening was the most pleasant. I took a stroll along the way of the lion and met for a second time a young druidess called Aurora. She is quite kind and her soul warm, reminds me of Iolanna. As always, Lathander provides and right in that moment arrived also Sane and few others of the Emerald Enclave. It was a peaceful evening of mostly laughters. Me and Sane remained alone at some point and he asked about Ashtera..i do not like much to talk about myself but i trust him, he is a wise one to say the least. After that, we took each our own way, althought i hope Sane would pass along my message to this druidess Runa. I have been told several times of her troubles and would like to hear from herself what she thinks, especially of the suggestion i have left to the ex-Archdruid."

*raises a bit his gaze on the golden tree, the rain still pouring on as the man makes a soft sigh*

"..i wasn't expecting anything, especially given the state the village is in, but part of me hoped we would had really met again here before my departure...but well, maybe another time. I have to reach for Derik when he is better too.

Anyway, the research is done and today i will have a last talk with Edelgarde before leaving for the Gate again and deliver the results of my investigations to brother Simon. Will update also Netanya, Sinoc and the others..could just leave the report but i know that when is about these kind of things better if they have questions answer in person. Will also use the occasion to check how is Maevynn. She showed up at Candlekeep with Karai for some researches, i didn't expect in the slightest the true condition she was in. Luckily magic works in Candlekeep and her leg should be fine now but..well will just pass to offer a greeting in case... also looking forward to chat with Katherine again. Her approach to the faith of the Broken god is an interesting one. Wonder also how Declan, Alexander and Gaven are doing after the battle. Hope none of them ended up like Maevynn.."

*raises his gaze one more time, seeing the rain relentlessly pouring down sighs softly*

"This rain seems to never wish to stop. Better keep moving now and just hope that the new dawn will wipe away these clouds.

*closes his journal and puts away his belongings before standing up, looking towards Doron Amar one last time and then head down the hill to take the path back where he came from*

[Ailander]

Hero

*After the night of rest, Kelian woke up with a soft smile on his face* "..that was a nice dream"*looking a bit around still in the inn of the Phoenix Company. It was a bit empty nowadays but still warm as always. Despite his best efforts sleeping inside the City was uncomfortable in many ways. With a soft yawn he stands up wathing outside the window, the darkest hour right before the dawn greeting him. He was more used to meditate or having few night of sleeps in the past, but with part of his soul still missing was hard to recall the exact method.*

*The usual routine follows: eat something light, wash, then pray at the first lights going to rest a moment against the wall watching the heartfire. Few memories rushing back on his mind of a similar fire, of a similar room, just more marble and decorations around him..and a funny,small, fox hengeyokai sitting on his lap as he stares to the flame*

"Kelian, what's wrong?"

*looking for a moment to the small creature, her black tail wipping slightly left and right, forcing a thin smile to try and reassure her at least a bit*

"Memories of the Coast. They are not too different from what is happening, Ayaki."

"What happened there? was it this bad?"

*silence hang in the air as the Aasimar sulks a bit going back to look at the fire* "It was different. Worst in a sense but not always bad."

*she stands up on his legs and pokes his nose with a finger, making him blink,as those small green eyes look at him with a smile*

"You are alive though. Stronger and people knows you. So don't sulk, smile!"

*as the memory vanishes the aasimar finds himself to smile again gazing then away from the fire place towards the desk where his journal is resting.Sitting in front of it would go to take up the quill this time to write on it*

"..well so much happened in these days that i don't even know if i will manage to write down everything. Let's start with the most important: the gods are back, everyone is rejoicing as the scribes of Candlekeep started writing down all the happenings of this last year and what they call the Era of Upheaval has started..i finished the quest that binded me mostly to the City recently, the dragon incident of Nashkel. After long researches made what seemed like the more likely theory on the chronicles and the knowledge that we gathered at Candlekeep and left it in the hands of those interested in the matter. Seems i am not welcomed as much as i was before in the church of Torm but well, not really surprised and sincerely not caring much. If they think i will play along to their game they are wrong.

Still left notes to my contacts in the City to support the Triadic as they can and hope they will manage to thrive. I wanted to remain a bit more but there is nothing i can do, the dead magic area is so...unnerving on several levels for my connection with the divine, but i promised to remain around to answer any questions about those reports i made. Then, pretty much right after that event, i have meet Sane with an olf friend of his...Revin if i am writing his name right. He is an ar-tel-quessir and quite the interesting person. He was here long before many, talking even of things how they were before the village of Doron Amar. I hope to meet him again is a really interesting fellow

Then i have met Wirg again, always making troubles for being a druid...but happy to see he didn't change. Back in the days was helpful in a lot of ways and do hope to work with him again.There was this accident revolving Roland and him..the squire of the Triadic was present and i believe her version, but i still hope the two will manage to talk it out peacefully. Then i have met Aurora and Nicho again and with them walked towards the Gate since i promised to remain in the area,but we found Red, Matilda and Rose on our way that insisted for that night at the goblet they invited me to long ago.

I am not particularly fond of Roaringshore. Reminds me far too much of Kortuga and other nasty places, but i have to admit that with the people of the Emerald Enclave, Derik and Red group it was a fun time. Told him i will never go back alone with them though, some...presences were really unpleasant, to say the least.Seems he got in quite some troubles again so i tried to give few advices, but as always he 'has a plan'.."

*chuckles soflty at the memory shaking his head as he goes back to write down*

Home

I found myself to think of Ayaki and Dawn's Rest. I wonder how they are doing nowadays, but anyway...i wonder if she was right or is just that something has changed very deep in me.Despite the words of brother Simon and Alexander hurted a bit, i already have forgotten them after few hours of sleep...then again, i found myself to not be able to merge with people on a 'nice time' that well. Is really hard to explain even if i tried to some people. Dancing with Matilda seemed so weird for some reason

...but anyway, i did what they asked help for and in a couple of days will make way back to Candlekeep. I did consider Edelgarde words the first time and after consideration, there is worth in what she said. I have also managed to contact back home and i will teleport today there to pass some times with them. Calvayas told me about a Tyrran possibly going corrupt and it worries him. Will try to listen to it but i am tired of investigating on these kind of things..i want just to pass some times at Tranquil Light with my heart and everyone.Will also take opportunity to refill on Teleport scrolls since i have not the means i used to for now."

*looking to the door he ponders* "You know what, think i will do just that"

"There isn't much i can do more around here for now, so i will just go back home and enjoy my heart presence. Hopefully, Calvayas will not make fun of me too much because i got involved in something again during these months..but untill then, we will see"

*standing up would leave the ink to dry and ensure that noone will disturb him in his room, payin for a few days worth for it. Then back in his room, gather his belongings and put away his journal taking out one of the potions of Colds and use it to istantly pop away in a different place, a still somewhat dimmed with the first rays of light since it was so far from the Coast, the stone church raising on the hill making him smile as a sweet soft voice says from in front of him*

"My love!"

*the smiles widens as his light gazed eyes drops on the small frame in front o him*

"I am home"

[Ailander]

Defender ((carefull, blood and gore ahead!))

*Liying on the soft bed of his home, staring at the wooden ceiling, his mind wanders back to the events of those couple of days far away from the coast: the ball, the chats...most of all the last words of Nike*

"..if that is the case, i would strike him down. Without remorse. Before could do any more damage than has already done.."

*closing a moment his eyes continues to remember the words of the winged elf inside his mind with a bit of a sad smile for the new complexion she showed him*

"...but i know that does not apply to you. I know that you wish to hope for the best, but not everyone can be saved..."

*his mind at those words remember harsher and far more cruel words with voices distorted by pain and hate*

"You are only a filthy traitor" "You should understand when you are not wanted" "Your presence gives me greviance" "You are driving everyone mad""You backstabbed me" "We don't need your help" "I don't want to hear" "You are only saying lies" "You are not better than them" "you reaped what you sow" "At least they REMEMBER ME" "You are a coward" "you are a tyrant" "you know they do not deserve your protection...join me"

*despite that, his expression doesn't change,still staring at the ceiling..but a murmur and a movement under the sheet makes him peek at his side, the small frame of the woman curling against him and holding dearly on his shoulders*

"...so just listen to your heart. What is it telling you to do?"

*taking a deep breath in and actually letting a river of words flood those voices as a choir of people answer back,drowing them out*

"They will not hurt you anymore" "I am going to fight, even if pain is what waits me" "Love is stronger than hate, remember that"  "It hurts because removing the thorns is painful..but it will heal"  "You just need to take your time" "it hurts because you still care"  "they still love you"  "is thanks to you that i am on this path"  "He is the only one here that knows me that well" "You look like a good person"  "Is because i want to see you succeed!" "You have been throught a lot, take your time" ..y-you don't n-need to f-face this alone..  "Kelian you are back!!" "Dear Charming, you are safe" "I'm glad you are here"  "I would follow someone that knows when to run"    "You have been brave in doing this again" "You can trust me, i will not betray you. You are my friend" "You have done good, more than you believe" "Think of the Ocean...""..like them, you shine a light for both your predators and the other denizens of the ocean..""..Champion of the Morning,i will not let you fall..""i will stand with my axe for you anyday,lad""Sun-man good.""..knock it off already, he is a Morninglord, would never do those things..""..i was wondering why you do that, now i know...""I trust you because you are consistent""..y-you have a kind s-soul..""..your presence bringed a change for the good, i know it..""..that's because you are a hero, that you like it or not...""..i don't know how you do this Kel...""...is an ungrateful job, noone thanks you and everyone complains..""..i see you able to unite people against this..""..is what makes you so endearing, and so infuriating...""..you are doing good, darhling...""..as they changed their minds, they can do it again. Little by little..""..i am trusting you with my life..""..the first time we spoke about you, he said has faith in you..""..don't let those bad spirits eat you alive...""..he is a trustful one...""..because you showed me who you are""you bringed me so much joy in my life""If you are a banite, i am a follower of shar for cry out loud""..with your hate for the things of the underdark? they are liying""thank you for your wisdom, brother""if wasn't for you they would had lynched me. Thank you""noone wanted to aid us and everyone avoided us..blessed be your soul""because you are the only one with a functioning brain""If you are here, i know Ashtera will not win""you gave us a home and we will protect you with our lives"""thank you for saving her life""Just look how many are here for you.""You are bound for great things, dear. That they like it or not."You have reached the top while they suffer. I say they reaped what they sow""I don't know what darkness would require a god intervention, but i read in the runes that you will succeed""Thank you for listening to me"

*a never ending flood of voices from people he met in those years of wandering in the name of Lathander, with each of them following a fight, a battle, a scar...an important place,important people the roles he covered and the sights he has seen...but then, among that river, one voice rings louder, sweeter and kinder than others*

"..those that see your determination for arrogance, those that see your piety for blindness, are the ones lost in the dark. Don't let them taint your light"

*opens his eyes again, smiling warmly at the woman at his side and giving a gentle kiss on her forehead as remember Nike parting words*

"Then you know what you have to do my friend"

*moving as gently as possible aside would leave the warm embrace at his side as he goes to dress up and done his armor, gazing for a moment to the elven sword with a neutral expression*

"We need to train togheter to be sure to defend the Halls when matters. Don't worry sweetie, i will guide you"

*taking a little deep breath pushes the sword gently aside and leave it in a corner as his hand reaches for the mace with the head resembling a sun and a small pin made with a perfect pearl at its center*

"..do you have to go soon my love?"

*turning his head smiles warmly to her staring in her violet eyes*"I do. But i will come back more often"

"I believe you and i will be waiting. I know what you do is important"

*going to the bed, leans down for a gentle kiss on her lips and smiles caressing her cheek*"I will not be alone this time" *reassures her with a kind smile before standing up* "I will make a sending in few hours, i promise" *giving one more kiss as reluctantly moves away and walks out of the door, bringing the pin a bit higher talking*

"Meshkanet? are you there?"

"Kelian is that you?has not been so long..what was last time, two years?"

"Indeed my friend" *putting the shield on his back before putting on his helmet while talking*

"Everything alright?"

"I need a favor"

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I was not sure how much was right to rp days spended elsewhere, but still i wanted to show how grateful i am to both friends and foes, good and bad players that made this journey so wonderful. I'd wish to have better memory or not have 3 years of logs to look throught, but i thought to do this sort of clip show in hope they will recognize themselves among these lines of the people i rped with, even if many are not playing anymore i will not forget. Thank you again <3

[Ailander]

Last Stand

*Sitting in waiting at the entrance of House Divine, the Aasimar removes his helmet and looks up to the ceiling as recalling the happenings of those days trigger new memories...Of an as well luminous place of marble,the breeze of summer in the air washing over the cliff surrounds him all around, the fortress temple of Celestial Dawn raising atop the tallest of the cliff and dominating the plains under it, the golden temple a shining beacon visible from the village and nearby communities..he stands there, in the main open temple, with only a dark figure in front of him, on the stairs leading to the golden statue at his back. Studying him. Observing. Just as much as he stares back then with a cackled voice and manifesting a scepter in hand the dark figures speaks*

"You have wronged me far too many times, Is time to die"

*not even the time to grab his weapon that the dark cladded figure begins to cast spells, unleashing a rain of arcane fire on him. Gritting his teeth he goes to strike back and knock her off balance, but she quickly teleport right behind him..right in the trap of small, black figure that starts to unleash dark spells. Hitten in the back by that new figure, the dark one turns to face the threat, only to end up hitten by the righteous smite of the Aasimar.*

"You coward! face me alone!"

"That's the difference between us Ashtera. You make slaves. I make friends.

*The fight is intense, but brief.Lightinings and holy light, togheter with faints of shadow bolts cross the skies above the temple and around the place..Cracks on the walls and on the ground still smoking, but the silence signal the end of the fight. Him and the small Ayaki towering over the cornered and wounded dark one.*

"We have won. This is it! Kelian, finish this!"

*with still spite in his eyes, he raises his weapon as with the free hand goes to remove the black helmet covering the enemy's face. Once removed, he freezes*

"..what are you doing?what's wrong?"

*almond shaped eyes looks empty towards him as the feature of an ar-tel-quessir gets revealed under that mask, long silverish hair and the emaciated skin caused by the spells still can't hide those familiar features... causing his livor to subside. An also familiar feeling reaches him. A pain almost forgot and left behind...malinchony and despair taking over, as his slowly lower his weapon and hold back from the finishing blow*

"..Kelian?Kelian!"

*right before opening his eyes again as he is being called in the lounge*

"Kelian did you fall asleep?"

Waiting for

*gone back to his room in Candlekeep, he stops a mometn to lay on the back and look at the ceiling, pondering, a bit lost and tired as takes a deep breath and then sighs the air out. Staring at the wooden ceiling a moment again before turning around and glancing at the journal on the desk. Taking a bit of effort to stand up again he goes to sit and take up the quill again*

"..Has been few interesting days since i have come back in the Coast. Gave me a lot to reflect upon.First, i am now officially a protector of Candlekeep...Edelgarde gave me actually few extra liberties but i try to still remain in the boundries of the rules. Despite is a lot more quieter for a lot of the old faces not being around, it has been a good time. Meshkanet is all in all enjoying her staying here, althought her duties still request for her to go back but mostly is staying with me since for her one or two years in the prime are nothing. She enjoys knowledge and culture so asked her to remain protect Candlekeep and help patrolin the Way of the Lion.The patrols are fine and, most of the time, i just have to run if an avowed or guard requests for assistance...but Alarielle training are really harsh. Even more of those i remember with Lylan'Synor...but i try to not complain too much. She is teaching me some new things as well, despite being used pretty much as a rag to clear the floor... I have met few new faces again, some that has close ties with Doron Amar and..they told me things again. Togheter with some of the story of the Dragon battle behind the scene. I said i didn't want to hear but was told anyway... "

*sighs soflty*

"Calvayas, if you ever read this journal for whatever reason, i did kept my promise this time and said no.Same for the Duke Court...i don't know exactly what Edelgarde meant with 'because everyone wants to be there' but i had far too much politics already on my back and after Rorst gods forbid me if i want to have anything to do with that den of snakes. I know there are still good folks in the Court and the Dukes are just trying to do what they can with the means they have but...ugh...

Anyway,going back on more pleasant things, i have met during my patrols some new people. A guard called Sean, a funny dwarf called Harker and Aramon's half, Awa..Awe..."

*ponders and frowns* "..i will have to ask him how is spelled"

"..a tel-quessir that has been blessed with natural magic, both arcane and divine. He seems a good man just..a bit too wary of himself. He is young though and i hope he will achieve his goals in due time.Met Lylan'Synor again by the way. Of course, was not happy..Meshkanet again tried to suggest me to keep an open heart in case she wants to reapproach, but I honestly do-..."

*stops a moment from writing, tapping on the parchment with the tip of the quill before adding*

"..i don't know if i would be able to. Still, what happened with Alexander and Maevynn gives me a bit of hope. There was a huge misunderstanding behind something i had said the night she showed up at Candlekeep...i am still confused how an expression of surprise could had been received in that way. Anyway, i was definitely in the wrong too since that was the reason why Alexander turned so cold...i jumped to conclusion after hearing brother Simon and thought the vicious cycle would had just started again. I am grateful he decided to face this head on. Wish that some others did the same back then...meeting with Lylan'Synor and talking with Alexander remembered me of one of the battles near Rorst.

Meshkanet is right. Giving her a second chance was not a mistake and leaded to her demise anyway...but i can't help wondering still now if what i did was because of who she reminded me or because of what i used to believe in. If it is the second case...maybe i should try to reach for another couple of people before giving for granted and..see what happens? Learn a bit more from Alexander direct manner. As William used to say, there is nothing wrong on being direct as a punch sometimes."

*leans on the back of the chair in ponder looking outside of the window in ponder as witnesses Meshkanet flying in patrol, her silhouette in contrast with the light of stars and the moon as he recalls the last chat had with her*

"...you are looking for closure, not to bring absolution...we both know though that there is a reason if Lathander is at your side..."

*bringing him to mumble*

"..who knows, maybe afterall was not only a selfish reason that leaded me back to the Coast.."

*decide to close the journal after the writing dries up and goes to rest on the bed*

[Ailander]

Demons

*Standing on guard near the benches, the Aasimar gaze looks elsewhere towards the dawning sun, but this time not in sing or praise. He is lost in thoughts as recalls the event of the last afternoon and evening. In all tha chaos, remembers still the warmth of her embrace and the kindness she showed bringing him back to better days. Takes a deep breaht as closes his eyes and still reminds himself to not give in to his usual behaviour. To not just forget as nothing happened this time. Yet, the voice in his head rings throught as heard her use a voice of tone that didn't hear since a long time, her exhausted expression and drained smile*

*curling his lips, he dips his head and bids farewell before heading inside the inn and taking a moment of rest inside his room. The bed calling to him, comfortably, quietly. Lies down on it trying to put his mind to rest on what happened but instead the dim light of the dawning sun entering from the window brings his eyes to his journal and taking a deep breath, stands up again to walk towards the desk, taking up the quill to note his thoughts*

"...So...I went again to visit the golden tree as i could with the limitations i have. Asked few celestial friends to patrol the surroundings on it so to be sure that what happened with that orc will not happen again. We ended up meeting again. I tried to stay, tried to be more like Alexander but I still wasn't able to face the pain. Especially with her initial accusations..but she was not angry anymore. She sounded exhausted. Drained. I couldn't help but see myself in her.

We both broke. When was the last time i cried like that...one year ago?...with Nara. She looks just like me back then. I want to talk with her, i want to heeelllp bbbbbuutttt w..."

*his hands trembles a lot as he is litteraly terrified at whatever thought crossed his mind and stops writing, putting his hands togheter trying to stop the shake and that terror that didn't feel since a long time to take hold again, holding his holy symbol as he reminds the words of his friends, trying to keep his focus and taking a deep breath, calming slowly down*

"...she listened. She comforted me, as brief as it was, and listened. I did the same and know her pain and where the misunderstanding comes from now with her friends.She made me feel lighter, even if i am terrified to go back to the old ways, i will repay this favor. I owe her that much if not more...I just hope she will understand where my pain comes from in time as well and that i will manage to help her make a brighter day..."

*looking to the window a moment, he closes his eyes and shakes his head trying to refind composure with another deep breath*

"..I hope another chance will come and..i made a promise. So, will try my best. I need to go to train now though. I really need to not think about anything now...find focus in faith."

*after that stands up and recovers his weapons, calling unto Meshkanet and Velaris as he walk out of the place weapons in hand agian*

[Ailander]

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Sorry for being long winded this time! Kelian doesn't really talk about his past but i wanted to share this adventure lived, even if is a super shortened version! Thanks to Cadur for reminding me of this event!

*Sipping his ale while sitting at the Warrior's Rest, still listens to the other man inside the hall while the conversation goes on*

"So you are more of a crusader than a wanderer"

Price of a mile / 40 to 1

*The memory calls him back to the hills of the Dalelands for a moment, hundreds of men and women standing togheter in front of him as the man next to him, someone which his dragon blood has signed his appearance more than others, begins to speak*

"I am Sartorix, Servant of the Justice Maker, leader of the Liberation Crusade and we are here all togheter today to push back those that intend to invade our homeland"

*as the man keeps speaking, the memory rush the Aasimar towards the battlefield. Goblins,Orcs,devils and humans stands on the other side of the hill, charging screaming and howling like beasts out for blood. Everyone stands in line, ready for the fight and holding spears and swords high to meet the charging enemy*

"The forces of the enemy is greater in numbers, which most of them are devils summoned from a madman, but we hold the better position.We have stronger powers"

*he begins to casts togheter with other casters spells upon the enemy, hundreds dies in the first volley of spells but it is not enough to stop the tide advancing*

"Our allies from the tribes and from Cormyr stands with us. We are not alone and as soon as we close the Gate towards the Hells, the enemy advance will stop. The Star Tribe will perform a ritual to close it. We must hold untill they are done"

*Goblins and orcs are the first to impact on the line against the spears, many died but more still managed to get throught and engage in melee. The smell of blood and death surrounds them as Kelian turns into a solar and begins to cut his way through them, helping those that he manage to reach while the voice of Sartorix screamed orders left and right*

"Supplies for weeks have been gathered and i want to thank all the volunteers that moved to face this threat, especially those that have no ties with the Dalelands"

*The battle is bloody, clashing of metal against metal or flesh sounds all around, fireballs, ice-storms and other flashes of spells get summoned all over the battlefield on both sides. The line becomes slowly thinner but the tide is pushed back. The enemy flee and retreat except for the devils that keeps fighting without remorse or relentlessly, making the people fight harder for their position, but at the end they as well get pushed back.*

"I will not lie; many will die"

*panting hard from the fight he looks at his feet; wounded and fallen from both side start to feel real in his mind as the rush of adrenaline slowly passes and the voice of Sartorix calls to him "Kelian!"*

"but we are here to do what is right.We are here to defend our homes!Crusaders, to arms!"

*Some of the men are cheering but mostly are focused on helping the wounded and trying to recover the fallen "Kelian! we need to storm their castle to hold their reinforcements! take your men and half of mine, me Reina and the others will go storm the castle. No matter what happens, hold the hill!"*

*His memory rushes again on a mile away form the original position, a large hill towering on a passage throught the mountains that would lead to the place of the ritual. The fight is even more fierce and bloody there as half the original defender forces were standing on the higher ground against an horde ten times their numbers. Yet veterans stood togheter with him from knights to mages. Knee deep in blood, mud and corpses, they manages to push them back everytime they charged ahead, but fatigue begin to have the best of them.*

*The battle was fierce, lasted hours with small breaks between one wave from another...one by one people around him were falling and if was not for the regenerative power of his blood he would had follow the same fate.At the end of the day, him and five others only were still standing on the hill as they did their best to still hold the line.When a new wave threatens to charge at the hill among the sea of corpses, spells and arrows from the forces coming back from the Castle break their formation and forced them to an early retreat. The main force was back.A towering woman leading them*

"Kelian we must all fall back to the ritual! many passed over us with fly and were aiming there, we must protect the star tribe!

*in a split second his memory rushes back to the place of the ritual, the snowy base of the mountain as devils and monstrousities from the hells tries to charge at it to disrupt the ritual. A circle of people, the few that remained standing to fight, surrounded the spot and holded back as many of the swarming forces they could. Kaltia,Sartorix,Reina those that were forming the circle at his side. 12 souls left to keep the six in the circle alive, the last remnants of the star tribe still living.Suddenly a flash of light erupts from the center of the ritual and the majority of the remnant forces composed by devils disappear into nothingness*

"It's working! look at them fleeing!""..wait, something is wrong"

*Kelian could feel it in the air just as Kaltia. The weave was stirring, the magical energies getting out of control*

"We must get out of here! quick I will teleport us out!"

*The aasimar looked towards the center of the formation where those few old men were still trying to keep it under control. He screamed towards Aldoran that was smiling at him as remained there*
"Wait! we must save those of the Star Tri-"

*but before he could say anything the dragon blood hand grabbed onto him and dragged him away into the teleport formation*

"Kaltia wait! WAIT! NO!"

*the memory shift scene again, a big hall where was reported that there were a lot of casulaties on their side, but many were getting raised from the dead. The star tribe and its leader Aldoran were missing in action. Many were smiling cherring and happy...Kelian was just laying on a bench, exhausted, tired..sad. Sileas and few others approached him, some grateful, some laughing, but he could barely hear them over the memory of those gone.*

*The scene changes again, he is standing over the green plateau where he once already had found the people of the Star Tribe, gazing into the dark sky as looking for a sign in the stars to guide thme to him.Was Aldoran, instead, to find him. He looked as nothing happened.They talked and chatted as they used to: about stars,about the arcane, about history..on many things, many lessons he learned from him*

"..is time for me to go now. Bring my regards to the others and tell them to always look at the stars,hm?"

*Kelian knew that was a goodbye. He learned to recognize a ghost when he sees one. Lowers his head as few tears begins to roll down*

"Oh stop crying you young fool!..your lord teaches that as well right?..the old need to make way for the new. I am sure everything will be alright. You will be alright. Just keep going on your journey head high"

*The memory vanish, a warm wide smile forming as it brings the last words of him echoes in his head
"We will watch over you from the stars" and he is back to reality, back to the Warrior's Rest*

"Yeah. I have been called like that as well"

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Last to fall

*Back to his room in the Candlekeep inn once again after patrol, this time he looks a bit more happier and less tired, leaving his weapons on the corner and stretching out looks at the sun slowly setting and since is too soon for the evening prayers, so he goes to write on his journal once more*

"...has been a couple of a good days. Met a lot of new people, managed to help them a bit in training and in battle, shared a drink with Derik again and he told me where to find Talio and Ronja. They even have a second child coming and promised to be there for this one...they are among the few i am happy to share my stories with.I hope their child is in good health, i dont' even know if is a boy or a girl.Told also Derik of that expedition that i wish to undertake to put the wrong we did long ago to right...i doubt Talio and Ronja will come along, given the circumstances, and i understand"

"Had time to reflect a bit on the past, remembered a good thing that happened a couple of years ago after leaving the Coast. I think to have a direction now after that for how to help Alarielle and Lylan'Synor, but that will depend how much they are willing to listen and work for it...i should also reach for Alexander, need to ask a couple of things from him. Met also another one from Doron Amar...Beatrix. I have heard of her back in the days, seems that she had choose as well to go away from the village because of the new council. I don't really know what to think."

"The days in Candlekeep are rather peaceful if we put aside the problems on the road: trainings with Alarielle are hells as always, chats with Maraav,Tiawynn and Edelgarde are fun and i enjoy sharing knowledge with them. No results on the researches on Ashtera and where she fled, but i did expect it would require time. Edelgarde is helping with those books on Abjuration that Naraviel asked and Tiawynn told me of a sort of party she is holding today,..promised to be there althought i fear will just look like a fish in a barrel as always"

"Djamilla is also on the Coast it seems.She didn't specify on the details but is funny to see all the people of the Purple Crow around here...Got reminded of Sartorix, Corven, Reina and everyone else yesterday by the way. Was wondering to use a teleport maybe after the party to go and visit them...see how they are doing. Has been since the days of that battle that we never had another chat.Maybe will cast a sending later to him and hear how they are doing. For now better i go saying the evening prayers and take some proper rest though. Tomorrow is another day"

[Ailander]

Diver

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ehm i know it may get confusing on the colours, but have mercy...there are more players than colours i can think of to make them fit T_T just know that same colour doesn't mean same person!

*Walking down towards the way of the Lion with his celestials friends at his side, his mind is a bit more lost in thoughts then usual at the memories of those few days that passed, the conversation he was present to and the old wounds they reopened with each word*

"I have done nothing to be ashamed of..."

"There is nothing we can do" "It is alright feeling like that, you want to protect yourself"

"Well im reflecting on it. And can't find anything i did i should be ashamed of or that was for her detriment."

"You look like an awful sturdy man""Is for his dedication to duty that i recruited him"

"I would rather you understand my point first."

"I wonder if you can help me...there is a problem with this cave...""If you wish to aid him you have my blessing"

What the hells do you want from me Kelian. I am quite drained.

"You made a choice back then""maybe or maybe others should learn to take the blame on their shoulders"
""Keep this between us""

"When was the last time that you chased a dream for yourself?"

*at that question ringing in his mind again, his feet just stop walking, with his cohort frowning and wondering what was wrong. After few moments decide to move to the side of the road and sit under a tree, giving a faint smile to his friends, before just trying to empty his mind looking at the scenery in front o him. Having his faithful journal still at his side, he goes to take it up with a piece of charcoal and write down some of those thoughts*

"...i wonder if they aren't right. If i shouldn't just leave everything in the mess it is without doing nothing except watching. I mean, why do i care still this much? with all the pain they put me through i--"

*sighs a bit and scratches those lines tapping on the page as tries to focus*

"..people here around says that i am judgemental, but what else should i think except what i see?...they still accuse eachother, still hurt eachother, still betray eachother or refuses to see what's in front of their eyes...and i'd wish to say is only a trouble that Lylan'Synor and Alarielle are having but no..no is not that. At all. Came back to fix two things that i had to carry with shame for years and i find myself with more secrets on my back to keep for the sake of others.This place is exhausting.To say the least.Lucia maybe was right afterall..."

*after few moments thought, memories again rushes to comfort him and remind him of all the good he has done and people he met, especially from Meshkanet next to him that softly speaks*

"The only expectation i have is that you live a happy life."

*closes his eyes and takes another deep breath holding onto his holy symbol as one recent memory comes back, one that in that chaos he almost ignored, a sweet voice first then the same one a bit pleading*

"I know you did the best you could.." ".. Kelian.. Be kind please. There are too many troubles, from lack of kindness.."

*at that exhales for a long moment still holding on his symbol for a few istant before going to take the charcoal again to write*

"...i will still try. I don't like to see old friends fighting...Aurora is right though. I should really try to find something that I wish to do...has been a long long time since i did that. Maybe that idea for a game to play in taverns with Lorial could be a good starting point...i just have ot find a way to be sure that Edelgarde doesn't turn it into a lecture of some kind"

*that makes him do a soft smirk as continue writing*

"Will also try to follow sister Ashenie advice. Maybe if i put those words on paper before ever talking about it with her, will help keep in check this...thing that i have inside since a long time.I hope at least this will help her understand what a dangerous path she is walking...otherwise i don't know, running out of ideas on how to possibly help...for now, i should go back to patrol and then to study. I have to finish copy that research about protection circles from that book Ed gave me. I am sure this gift will make Nara happy"

*after writing that down, closes the journal once more and stands up with another deep breaht, making a soft nod at his companions before moving on with the patrol*

[Ailander]

Other worlds than this

*After reaching the room he rented with Bhor in the locall inn, Kelian takes an unsteady deep breath. The air was heavy. The place dark and the mood just as bright. Still, that stop had to happen again, like in the past. There were some answers that he could get only there and he knew it, no matter how much he looked under the light of the sun. He gazes for a moment to the dwarf snoring on the other side of the room and that makes him smiles amused.Not having need to rest yet, too much tension still for the place, goes to a near table to begin writing on his journal again*

"..this place changed so much. The Kraak itself is far more beautiful then what it was before but is nice to see that the childs of Moradin never really change.The trip to reach the troll mountains was not easy nor short, but it wasworth it to feel the welcoming embrace of the mountain-folk once more.
Is incredible what they can do in few briefs years and makes me wonder what this place can be in the future still. I am glad that Bhor was not mad about the informations i undercovered. That he believes it or not i was not really trying to, but he knows where i stand and is not far from his shield.

I reflected on which dream i can possibly desire for myself but maybe i am too far gone. Can't really think of anything else but her happiness...i can imagine Alarielle and Edelgarde being upset for not showing up at the Court, but i hope they know me. Helping others gets priority over social happenings, especially when is someone so dear to me. I plan to go back, of course, in few days but this is the only place where i can get more informations about what happens from the world below. Makes me happy to see how much things changed for the better around this part of the Coast...but is too soon to say how really did so. Spider-b--ch followers and other horrors from the dark lurks around these deep caves. I am glad to have master Bhor at my side, this was not an easy trip and i am sure would had ended up lost without him.

Missing Eisenhorn and Tommy. They knew these passages a lot more and was easy to raid those godsforsaken monsters with them..."

*sighs soflty as melanchony takes him once again looking a moment out of the small window and the darkness outside*

"..most of the races of the world above may ignore the threats that lurks around here or let just others report to them, but i know far too well that voices travels fast and most of the time they are tainted or corrupted. Had to see and ear with my own eyes.I will remain in the Kraak few more days and try to learn these safe passages a bit more. The dwarves are aiding me in understanding them or how to use the mines. I always owe so much to the folk of Moradin and i hope to repay this debt.

Hope everyone in Candlekeep will be alright and that Katherine has enough material to study even without my presence...and i hope to be able to go back and see the sunlight soon again. For now, though, i need to keep making questions around here and try to understand how much things have really changed.I envy this good old friend of mine that manages to sleep so soundly. I can never get a proper night of sleep in this complete darkness.Will put up some wards before trying to get some sleep just in case."

*after that, heads back towards the door placing few protective runes and other spells to be sure noone would interrupt their sleep, then goes back to rest on the bed holding still close both his holy symbol and his mace, with an uneasy rest waiting for him*

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Hello everyone! i will be gone for a little while and used this trip IC to explain the excuse of me being gone. Have fun everyone and see you soon!