An open letter and farewell

[Zanniej]

A few weeks back, I started a topic on who the new admin should be. Unfortunately, this discussion brought to light a lot of pent up anger amongst staff. The result was an untenable situation in staff, which quite quickly evolved into multiple people saying "if they don't go, I will leave."
In that, I felt forced to pick between who could stay, and who should go. A terrible choice, and one I definitely never wanted to make. But not doing so, might result in more people leaving, or a situation that remained untenable.

Since I did not want to put our new admin in a situation where they had to start off by making unpopular choices, that will definitely give you a very strong backlash, I decided that I would make those decisions, as to give the new admin a clean slate.

I've felt that. I've gotten messages that made me want to quit right there and then. I've decided to stick it out, make the decisions, and possibly leave the villain.

But the amount of hostility I've felt has been truly sickening, and has caused me sleepless nights for the better part of the last weeks. I've been blamed for many things, but this was long in the making. This was brewing for a long time, and this was going to crack sooner or later. This was a cumulation of situations that have long been happening.

I will not say I've been perfect. I know I'm not. I've probably not handled this perfectly either.
But I'm accepting the blame, and removing myself from the situation. If I had to do this again, I would've made the same choices, as I truly believe this is the best way forward. I've made no irreversible changes (though will have probably burnt some bridges for me personally, but I'll accept that as consequence for my actions), and our new admin has all the freedom to form things to his vision. My main goal is to give the new admin a clean slate, and I've done my utmost to do that.

But this is not the first time I've tried to handle a completely terrible situation, at the cost of my own wellbeing. And I'm officially burnt out, and leaving. I will remain available for the admin, for whatever they need to make this community thrive, but will no longer have any active role in staff.
I will probably not be answering any PMs anytime soon. Maybe I'll respond on discord, but even there I'm making no promises.

I hope this server will thrive, I hope everybody will continue to have wonderful RP moments here.
Maybe one day I'll return as a player. Regardless, I wish everybody the best of lives, and thank you for the wonderful years we've shared.