"Lady Ambassador Cheryl Mae Cadwaldr," Alayna murmured to herself, savoring the words like honey. She stood aboard the brigantine that would whisk her away from Baldur's Gate later that morning, the thick pre-dawn fog giving the harbor a wet and heavy feeling. Later, it would give the place a mushy, wooden smell as the sun awoke. She wore a decorative green gown with a low cut top and large white collars, showing off her choker displaying her lion-crested pendant. Chin held high, gaze soft, she would appear to the loaders or the captain of the ship to be a woman at the height of her power, occupied in the privacy of her own thoughts. In truth, she'd drunk too much with Endelyon the night before, and her head felt as if a sparrow had built a nest in her skull.
On the horizon, the sky lightened, signaling the beginning of dawn. The fog and clouds that defined Baldurian weather implied that it would not be seen until past noon -- if the clouds broke at all. Workers continued to work by lamp and lantern light, comfortable in the misty weather as they rode down the railcars, carrying men and cargo, that defined the efficiency of the great city's docks. The Sword Coast has not been kind to the city in recent years. A war one year, dragons the next. A year-long drought followed, and so on until Alayna herself lived and worked in the city, threatened by plague and undead. She remembered participating in the troubles and worries vividly night after night, and it was due to another stressful night that she'd overindulged herself once more. The minutes passed, and the throbbing at the back of her head lessened with the calm. It was finally starting to sink in.
She was free.
Life in court will leave her even more busy than ever before. She had no doubt about that. And she was becoming daily more aware that the higher she climbed, the more precise and elegant she must become. Every little gesture, from the way she used her little finger to a perceived squint in her eyes had the potential to be misread, and lives consequently altered. That much had not changed. What has changed is now how many people are affected by her everyday actions. She represented Baldur's Gate in the eyes of the Lord's Alliance. She was not free from the everyday struggle that defined life; rather, old struggles that she had doggedly worked against were now someone else's problems. Her sense of freedom came less from a lack of struggle than from her simply having a lack of struggle
right now. The freedom of respite is a temporary thing, and so she indulged in it for as long as no one needed her.
~~
The morning remained grey as morning hit its stride, the air now abuzz with the sounds and smells of a seafront in full swing. Ropes creaked and wood groaned, and near and far bells signaled so many different activities that Alayna was sure someone, somewhere, acted on the wrong signal, pushing productivity back and having the lost profits cut from their pay. The salty breeze picked up the scents of the foods prepared by the vendors who, generations ago, discovered the profits that came with selling cheap food near an army of constantly working laborers.
Her reverie was finally broken by the smell of garlic and fried squid, and when she turned, her husband stood before her with a plate of food steaming in creamy tomato sauce. He smiled at her, a forkful of food held in invitation before her, warmth radiating from his amber-colored eye.
"Hungry?" he asked invitingly.
She smiled in response, and pecked at the fork before accepting the utensil and plate when he hands it over to her.
"The captain believes we'll be setting sail within the hour," Llywelyn continued as Alayna, sometimes known as Cheryl, broke her morning's fast. "Everything we're bringing is now safe and sound in the hold, and our cabin is now furnished and ready for us to occupy it."
She paused in her eating to give Llywelyn a querying look, “Elly's done already?”
He chuckled in response, "Already napping in our bed."
She smiled. He didn't need to elaborate; they both knew how Endelyon worked. She likely began long before Alayna herself awoke, and set upon the task of making their quarters perfect for Alayna . . . until it actually was. Little details, the kind Alayna herself doesn't think about, were likely attended to. Their liquor cabinet would be stocked, and she wouldn't have to worry about running out of tobacco before reaching Waterdeep.
"Rook?" she asked next. Llywelyn pointed up, and, sure enough, there was the girl climbing the rigging, seeming intent on getting to the top. Alayna shook her head.
~~
As promised, the bell rang within the hour, and the first mate announced the captain’s orders. The only tricky part of getting Sparrow to come down was catching her attention; once captured, she was compliant and efficient in coming down herself. Alayna asked to speak to the little bird at the side, and Llywelyn gave them their space by volunteering to take Alayna’s food away. Once they had some semblance of privacy, she stood before Sparrow once more, smiling in the face of the awkward silence that usually happens under the girl’s deceptively innocent expression.
“I wish I had better words . . . some great wisdom to give you before we go,” Alayna started, and paused as she tried to gather her thoughts.
Sparrow, after a moment’s thought, began to pull out her cards, but Alayna held out a hand and shook her head, indicating that she wasn’t done yet.
“The truth of the matter is, I can’t make you a better person. I want to, but it’s arrogant of me to assume I know better than you. I really don’t. Look, we’re always going to come back. Us birds, we always know where home is, hmm?” she offered a comforting smile.
Calculations happened behind Sparrow’s eyes, and she responded with a questioning nod.
“I guess what I want to say is that you’ll always be family. And if you ever get tired of the job here, you can always come travel with us, okay?”
Sparrow gave a more affirmative nod.
“Good,” replied Alayna softly. “Take care of my bank, and make sure Charraj and Ckal don’t end up burning it to the ground.”
Her voice quivered toward the end, emotion overwhelming her as she realized she was literally saying goodbye. Despite logic telling her that she will likely see Sparrow again, she thought,
this really is goodbye. She reached over, and quickly drew Sparrow into a hug. The girl likely protested at the sudden intrusion of her personal space, but Alayna wouldn’t have cared.
People change, she thought. Months, years.
The Sparrow I meet when I return may be an entirely different person. Gods, what if this gives her the confidence to speak? The thought was enough to make her tighten her grip, trying to physically love the girl harder, despite the impossibility. All too soon, sometime after Sparrow-sometimes-known-as-Rook stopped struggling, Alayna would let her go.
~~
When it was time to set sail, Llywelyn rejoined his wife atop the deck to wave goodbye to their friends, those able to see them off. Alayna would find herself in tears long after the docks had disappeared from view, and she would ask Llywelyn to walk her to their cabin.
Once there, she would motion for Llywelyn to sit at the side of the bed, careful not to wake the sleeping Endelyon. She looked around briefly for her belongings, and, after spotting it, she would pull out the biggest item in her bag. A black, wooden box, highly polished and well-maintained, carved with wistful stars and wind whirls and wave shapes. Box in hands, she went to sit beside Llywelyn, and, after he’d seen what she’d brought, he gave her a simple smile. She leaned against him, and he wrapped his arm around her on instinct, the act made more intimate by their familiarity. She brushed her thumb along the lid of the box, thoughtful.
And then she opened it.