Caedis Praedurum - Memories Made, Memories Lost

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Day 50

- Talked with the Gatewarden and Valerius about my condition. Thus far Candlekeep has discerned that there may be several causes of my memory loss to include drinking water from the River Styx. May make sense seeing as I had a drink in front of me when I "awoke" at the tavern. Several other possible solutions were renderred... all... very interesting.

It appears every possible solution to the cause of my ailment only raises exponentially more questions.

- Joined Nashkel's defense force as a full-time member as they are in dire need.

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Day 55

- Been distracted lately with the goings on. Lady Bleth was damn near a assassinated. The N.T.E. in general has been filled with drama. This should come as no surprise as they are both women I suppose, and one an entertainer at that.

- Those that attempted this assassination should be routed out, however my greater duty is to the number of would-be residents of Nashkel.

- Wrote some rather brash letters to the N.T.E. concerning risking our alliance with the druids for foolish games at the arena. To risk what alliance we have for self-promotion in order to gain a few... spectators... as recruits is a move I question on a tactical level.

Right or not, I should work on being a bit more... diplomatic.

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Day 90

- Killed a couple knaves today, dragged their arses to Amn, where I now have some jurisdiction.

- Killed a necromancer and several of his miscreant allies as well, several weeks prior. Their actions warranted the swift retribution which I happily rendered. Ambush me... do they mistake me for a mere villager!?

- Met a shaman... at least that's what I believe her to be. She wanted to tell me my fortune, to which I was quite dismissive. However, she offered to read my past and in a voice that sounded as if she had known I sought my past. Out of curiousity, I let her do her little spiritual drawing-of-circles and whatnot. She said I was not of this world. Once again I was dismissive of her. She then asked if I were resilient to the elements, to which I responded "Yes, but that is due to hardening from battle." She proceded to splash acid in my face... which... did nothing very much to my surprise. As she wiped it off my face her hands burned. I... had no idea the level of tolerance I had for such attacks.

- This grabbed my attention naturally. I listened as she spoke. She told me I would outlive any wife I take and have surely already outlived past wives. She also said to seek out an individual. "Cassioprien" she stated. She said it may be a father or a father's father etcetera.

While I hold little merit in the ramblings of the woman... she was quite convincing and surprisingly accurate with what I would consider assumptions. And... she did not ask for pay. She did this of her own will. Perhaps there is some merit to her claims.

((special thanks to the player of Janda for this character-altering RP... which I'm not sure if you did off the cuff. Either way, some interesting insight into my character's development))

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Day 124

- Nashkel's defenses strengthen. Thanks to the laborers from the Ironfaars, the rebuilding has picked up dramatically. Hopefully initial defendable positions will be ready within the next few weeks.

- Met an Orc... one of an almost tolerable demeanor while hunting undead in the northlands. Though my hand never left my hilt, I had little doubt that his hatred for the dead was true. Indeed he helped me lay out a great swath of the boned bastards in the hills north of Baldur's Gate before we broke party.

I shall keep the beast under close observation for the time being.

- Also have an unorthodox informant of activities of the caverns below Nashkel... He/she is most-resourceful. I will not write more on this in fear of this journal falling into the wrong hands. I believe the lands would suffer greatly without his/her knowledge.

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Day 210

- Selah has disappeared, Marco cannot be found, and our supply ships have been sabotaged several times now... once while I was on board. Left without leadership, I have been left to take the reigns of Nashkel's defenses.

- Was imprisoned and later exonnerated for having been an acquaintance of Beren Cross. Terrible shame losing a strong ally, but the fellow commited an unforgivable crime in the lands of the Gate.

- The Order of the Valiant Shield which had been a noble group appears to be standing down. I had been a part of this group but with all the commotion about Beren, I believe it is best to let the name die... but not the cause.

- Still no luck obtaining the source of my memory loss. Perhaps it is time to let go of the idea of ever recollecting my past. Perhaps it is for the best... who knows what sort of man I was before. Mayhaps I was a knight... mayhaps a knave... either way the past does not define the identity I have now. I believe it is best to leave that which is the past... in the past.

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Day 210 - Addendum

- Twice, attempts on my life were made by an unknown assailant. The Assailant is told to me to be that of Cody O'something-or-rather (make sure to write down things quicker you fool). His latest attempt was briefly successful and he was later arrested for the attempted murder. The quick action of the Fist on the matter has reinstilled some of my former faith in the mercenaries.

///remember: everything in this journal is OOC knowledge to those not involved///

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Day 212
- Appears that Sir Crownsilver's spirit does no yet rest. During a short visitation by myself and several others, his spirit leapt from his body and charged off citing that his "Duty was not complete."

After following the group and the hasty spirit for some time, I had to succomb to my frost-bitten foot and was unable to keep pace. I lost the group shortly thereafter. Unable to locate the whereabouts of ongoing events I retired to the tavern to treat my foot. My duties do not require me to chase justifyably vindictive spirits after all... but my orders do dictate that I stay in good health.

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Day 302

It has been no less than three months since I departed from Nashkel at the behest of superiors in Amn. I am gladdened to hear that the town is stepping up its defences and slowly rebuilding in my absence.

I have been responsible for training many specialized soldiers in Amn of late, but I must admit I greatly miss the battles of Nashkel. They were glorious days and ones that honored Helm most I believe.

I have even heard of the return of most of my former superiors, which at least gave me peace of mind as to their health. This comes as a great relief and a lightened burden to this old soldier.