Kelian Hannen : The path to the Light

[Ailander]

*after spending the night half awaken and in pain, his empty gaze goes towards the spot where he hided the journal. Taking it out, and taking his quill from the backpack begins to write*

9 Alturiak

"Probably, this will be my last entry. I am too tired. The pain too unberable. It seems that someone saw me questioning that dhaerow, problem is have seen only me playing the lute. Did not hear the questions. Did not see the attack of the undead.Rumors will likely start to spread like a wildfire again...to be honest? I could have still ignored them, so long that i could remember my old friends and in the hope that things could go back to normal in time. But what i learned in this two days? there is no hope

Corneille lured me asking for aid, trying only to obtain informations. Lamt changed into a cold angry person. Syndreth does hate me and her desire to not see me is so strong that is actually avoiding town from what Alyssia told me. Not like i searched for her...even if i wanted, i would have not had time. But what hurts the most? i really hoped that here i could have found comprehensive ears and someone to share the pain and the load with. I thought that was making progress, bit by bit, but the look of Alyssia eyes made me realize, things are just going to repeat themselves again...

..so be it. I am tired of fighting.This world is not my own, i do not care for the prophecy of that Ly'loran anymore.If they do not like the way to put an end to this story once and for all, suits themselves, i will just do what i should have done when firstly all of them tried to approach me and become important in my life: move on or just retire in a secluded glade far from here.I will leave this book with all the informations i gathered, both those that still need to be verified and not, to A...lady Alyssia.I will try to talk with Lily one last time. I already know how it will end, like it always did, like it always will..but i owe her this much.

...if you are reading this,lady Alyssia, tell Syndreth that this is her world, i never inteded for her to suffer and will not likely see her ever again in any case..and tell Ashenie that she was wrong about me. I am not strong enough and that i am sorry to have failed her expectations"

*then, closes the journal, tide it up a bit and put it aside, making a sending afterwards preparing to move before dawn like always*