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Planehopper
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Peace Out Homies

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Dear Community,

It is with a heavy heart that I share I have been removed from the development and moderation teams. While this decision was not one I made for myself, and there are a lot of unresolved feelings with that, in the end I believe it’s still important to try to just focus on the positive contributions we’ve made together during my time here.

I want to take a moment to express my deepest gratitude to everyone I’ve had the pleasure to work and play with during my time here. Over the years (almost 17! Gods im old), I’ve been fortunate to collaborate with some incredible individuals, both in-game and on staff, and together we’ve built and supported something truly special. Your passion and creativity have always been my driving force, and I am grateful for every shared moment and achievement.

But I gotta say.. for the community to truly thrive in the future, it will be essential to focus on mutual respect, openness, and bridging these divisions that have emerged. There needs to be trust within staff, trust between players, and trust in one another individually. As the player base continues to dwindle, it will be more crucial than ever to come together, to collaborate effectively, and to hold each other accountable without compromising integrity. Open doors, try to accept others' ideas, and find ways to bridge these divides if the community is to flourish once again.

To clear up any confusion, my departure was not influenced by any allegations made against me but by a broader set of circumstances rooted in my commitment to fairness, integrity, and justice. I have always strived to be fair, respectful, and supportive of this community, and I stand by all of my actions as a player, as a dev, and as a moderator. There is a complete record of my moderation and all of my moderation private messages on the forums that reflect this commitment, and anyone that has access should take a look. While I believe that greater transparency would benefit everyone and lead to a deeper understanding, I also recognize that some information will always remain confidential.

As I step away from my official roles, I have also decided to step back from the community entirely. Whether this departure is permanent or temporary, I cannot yet say, but it does somehow feel very final. This is not an easy decision, as this place has been my home for so many years, and I have poured a great deal of my time and energy into it—as a player, as a DM, a member of QC, a moderator, and a developer. However, under the current circumstances, taking a step back seems to be the best, and only, choice for my own peace of mind.

A special thank you goes out to my fellow moderators, who have known and felt the struggle with me and have seen behind the curtain. To the DMs I’ve worked with—so many over the years, but DM Spartacus recently in particular—your dedication and effort have been invaluable. And to the developers who have taught me more in the last two years than I learned in the previous fifteen combined, you’ve made me realize I should have started doing this stuff much sooner: Hakken, Rad, Lux, Lambe, Sel, Ashenie, EasternCheese, Dalo, Ged, Matelener, Nemni, Dae, Rhifox, and Endelyon. Thank you all for your guidance, your patience, and the knowledge you’ve generously shared.

But my deepest gratitude goes out to the players I’ve had the privilege to RP with over the years. I’ve played through many accounts and characters, crossing paths with so many of you (sometimes without you even realizing it), and countless others who have moved on from the community. You all brought your own unique quirks and creativity to our shared experiences, and I will genuinely miss each and every one of you in one form or another. Creating stories that still linger in the server's lore will remain cherished memories. From the old school days and beyond, I have fond memories of the Weave Masters, the OG thieves guild (one of you is still here...), the Wyndsouls, the Harpers, the Silver Shield, the Ebon Blade, and Rocky Creek. I probably even missed a half dozen, but there were some good times. Even as I leave, please remember that tolerance will always be mf treason, and keep flippin those coins to the ol Rocky Creek caravan man for me while I'm gone.

In the end, I believe this community deserves a leadership that truly values fairness, openness, and a commitment to the well-being of all its members. I leave with a genuine hope that this community will find that, and find a way to thrive, grow, and build the trust it so desperately needs. I believe in its potential to overcome these hurdles, and I hope to see it flourish long into the future.

Thank you for your support, your friendship, and the many memories we’ve shared. I wish you all the best, and perhaps our paths will cross again.

TL;DR - peace out homies

Sincerely,
Planehopper (aka Broham2, aka BDobolina, aka a few more 8-) )
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Unread post by Ashenie »

Hello Everyone, Hello Planehopper,

It is with heavy heart and sadness that I read about your departure. I commend your focus on positivity.

It is true that there is never a dull moment in staff, whether on the Dungeon Master Team, or among the Developer Team. As your long 17 years of focus are admirable, it is more than half of my life, my only four year dedication have been incredible. There have been a lot of projects, sometimes difficult, sometimes building cohesion, but always passionate and grand.

What a journey it has been! I learned a lot, and built bridges. I considered this place as part of my home. Not many did know, but I have severe health issues, forcing me to take painful treatments. Handling stress is a daily struggle for me, with sad consequences when it is handled badly. Baldur's Gate has been my rock in this tempest, one that I cherished dearly over the years.

I cannot begin to thank enough people with whom I shared marvelous, fantastic roleplay scenes and stories. I have been fortunate to find you all, I have been happy to share stories, I have been thrilled and honored to partake yours. You have given me warmth, creativity, and companionship, and for that, I am forever grateful. I have been writing exceptional bonds with so many of you, progressing in a character story that expressed the depth of what I lack as person : the capacity to mend all harms, to restore lost lives, to help all who hurt, no matter who they are.

While my time here has been filled with joy, it has also been marked by moments of profound hurt. It deeply pained me to witness instances where both players and staff were not treated with the fairness and respect they deserved. In how decisions were enforced, how ignored rumors affected people, and in how real life offenses remained, sometimes, unaddressed. It is with heavy, wounded heart that I slowly realized I was not able to trust the safety and the fairness of this environment any longer, and I understood some of my expectations on this matter will not be met. I had many projects in mind, that I tried to keep on rails... perhaps to keep me going as well. Despite my best efforts, I came to realize that it was no longer enough for me, no matter how hard I tried. I have been down, sad, for more than a year and a half, trying to find new ways to hold on. But I have been drowning, mostly in silence.

As Planehopper, I will carry fond memories of this place, especially of the characters who deeply impacted mine: Sean, Alexanders, Nathan, Declan, Edelgarde, and so many others with whom I have shared unforgettable stories. To all of you, I thank you for the moments we have shared, for the warmth and creativity you brought into my life.

I wish to offer special thanks to those who have supported me out of character, whether through development work or simply by reaching out. Your kindness has meant the world to me, beyond the words I shared, and I will cherish those moments as precious as they are. I hope I was able to offer if only a fragment of what I was given.

If the current administration allows me, I will commit my last bit of work. As I step away from the vibrant heart of this community, I will focus on healing and mending the personal wounds that have grown too heavy for me to carry. I am unsure if this is a final farewell, but I know that for now, it is necessary. and I cannot stay without passively accepting rulings I deeply disapprove, against my core beliefs. Despite all this, I bear no resentment and no hate for anyone. It is I who do not fit, and I have accepted this.

I want to leave on the most positive, tender note that I have for you all. I thank you, and I love you all. I admire your creativity and the level of details and depth of the stories I have seen on this server. I am grateful and amazed.

With all my care, with all my love, and all my attention, thank you dearly for everything.

Ashenie - DM Abyss
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Re: Peace Out Homies

Unread post by Almarea90 »

Hi everyone.

It is with great sadness that I read about PH and Ashenie's departure. It has been great working and RPing with you and I strongly believe that you will be missed.

Unfortunately I must echo the sentiment Ashenie expressed. Until now, I have always been pretty much in agreement on how rules are enforced. However I don't feel this is the case anymore. In addition to this, under the lingering conflicts and the palpable atmosphere of hostility, I feel that BG is no longer a welcoming place. For these reasons, it is with a heavy heart that I have decided to step down from staff and step away as a player with immediate effect.

This is not a post of accusation in any shape or form. I still respect the decisions that have been taken as I know that they were taken with the server's best interest at heart and I hope that I will be proven wrong. Despite all, I still retain hope that the new leadership can improve things and that is why I might be back in the future. For now however, at the very least, I must take a very long break for the sake of my wellbeing.

I have already discussed with my guild how to handle the matter IC and I am confident that I will leave Candlekeep in more than capable hands.

Thank you everyone for those five years.

Edelgarde/Almarea90/ArchiveGremlin
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