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Some places do not wait for us, yet still expect us to know where to stand.
Before the end of the year, I had told Tyn and a few others that I meant to go south into Tethyr. There was no need to make a ceremony of it. The Circle had steadied enough to stand with one less ranger for a time, and I had no wish to turn a road into a farewell.
By Alturiak of 1351 DR, I was already in Tethyr. I had crossed the Coast road and Amn by then, though I did not cross either quickly. I had no horse, and I had not gone south as a man in a hurry to be seen. Some stretches I walked alone. Some I took with caravans, when traveling with a line of wagons made better sense. A man with a bow draws fewer questions when he is walking beside wheels and taking a watch like everyone else.
I did not hide Mielikki. There was no shame in Her mark, even in Amn. Men who wanted a ford read or a night road watched did not usually care whether a ranger’s prayers had crossed their border with permission. What I kept quiet was the war. Only a few years had passed since I had stood against Amn, and I had no wish to learn which caravan guard, toll man, or old soldier might remember the wrong side of my bow.
Amn had not been broken by that war. Its inns still counted every cup. Its merchants still argued over weights, weather, and losses at the end of the month. But people remembered. Mothers remembered sons who had marched. Most remembered prices that rose and never came down. Guards remembered friends who had gone north and returned with fewer fingers, fewer teeth, or fewer words. I heard enough by keeping quiet.
I slept outside more often than I needed to. That was partly habit and partly caution. The road was wet, and there were mornings when my cloak had stiffened around me before dawn. I helped where I could. Checked a ford before wagons risked it. Warned a caravan away from a bad camp. Helped search for a boy who had gone missing near the marsh and found him before dark. There was no lack of work along the way.
The first sight of Tethyr did not come with trumpets or any welcome arranged for my return. It came under a low winter sky, from a rise where the land fell away into hills and wet fields. Farther south, the Wealdath lay dark against the distance, large enough that even haze could not soften it into something gentle. Smoke marked settlements below, leading out to roads that crossed and vanished. Somewhere beyond all that were places I had known before I understood what they would come to mean. I stood there longer than I meant to, and nothing in the land answered. That was fair. I had not written ahead.
Though it was not nearest to where I meant to end, I made my way to the coast first. Flora’s cottage was there, and I had not come this far south intending to pass it by. She had kept a cottage in a small hamlet within Port Kir’s reach, not in the city itself. Port Kir was too loud for the memory I carried. The hamlet was the sort of place that fed a port without becoming one. Nets, small fields, damp lanes, woodsmoke, shells in muddy yards, and enough trade passing near to make strangers useful before they became welcome.
The ealdorman called the place Alderwash. I could have sworn it had been called something else years before. I should probably check what it is called these days.
The cottage had never truly been ours. Flora had kept it because the hamlet needed an herbalist, and because the garden behind it already knew more healing plants than weeds. Someone had used the place before her. That showed in the shelves, the drying hooks under the rafters, and the workbench set where morning light came through the small window. Flora had changed it anyway. She had that way about her. A room could be half empty when she entered it and useful by nightfall.
It was useful to someone else now. There was a new fence, set crooked but sound. The garden had been cut smaller. A child’s shirt hung from a line near the door, snapping in the wind hard enough to sound annoyed by the day. Someone had stacked firewood where Flora used to keep baskets. The roof had been mended with newer thatch on the south side. A dog watched me from under the step and decided I was not worth barking at unless I came closer. I did not.
A few people looked at me twice. One old face knew me after a while, though not by my name at first. Flora came easier to memory than I did. That was how most of them had known me then, if they had known me at all. I had been the quiet man who came down from the trees, the husband who carried roots and bark and sometimes stood in the doorway while Flora worked. Younger folk passed me with no more interest than they gave any road-worn stranger. They had no reason to know what the cottage had once meant.
I thought that would hurt more than it did. It hurt, I will not deny it. But it was not the old kind of hurt, the one that catches behind the ribs and demands an answer. The house had not betrayed me by holding another life. It had done what houses do when roofs do not fall and people still need somewhere dry.
I write that now after having years to consider it. The same is true of many things in these pages. I did not always understand them so neatly when they happened. Memory has had time to turn them over before I put them down in ink.
I might have left Alderwash that same day if not for the sow.
That was how the hamlet spoke of the trouble, as if one animal had become a matter large enough to name. A boar sow had charged a woodcutter three days before I arrived. He lived, though he had a torn thigh and bruised ribs for his trouble. Another man had been chased off the lower trail the next morning. By the time I heard of it, some were already set on killing her before she did worse. Except for Tavin Rusk.
He was young for the work, early twenties at most, and one of the youngest men trusted to move regularly through the woods around Alderwash. That made it easy for older men to mistake caution for softness. I have seen that done to young woodsmen, young guards, young rangers, and young fools who later proved not to be fools at all. Tavin knew the trees, stormfall, axe paths, charcoal grounds, and the shortcuts villagers used through the woods. He did not know Flora nor me. He belonged to the hamlet as it was, not as I had left it.
He had good eyes. Before we went out, he showed me a bent pay token he had found near the lower way. It was not village coin. It had been punched for issue, not trade, the kind of thing given to men someone meant to count later. The mark on it was worn, and I did not know whose purse had first held it. It might have meant nothing. Men on the road dropped things often enough, then sometimes swore they had been robbed. Still, Tavin had kept it because it did not belong, and that told me something about him.
We took the lower trail first. The old way had held for years, not because every tree was marked fresh each season, but because the people who used it knew its habits. Trails in country like that are kept by feet as much as knives. A cut in bark, a leaning ash, a bend around wet ground, a place where roots hold a bank better than stone.
The weather had been hard on the trail, and rain had taken part of the bank below the alder bend. One marker tree had gone down into the wash, roots lifted like fingers. Another stood, but the old cut had turned pale and useless under wet lichen. Someone had gone around the trouble and widened a deer path without meaning to make a road of it. Broken branches showed where others had followed. Boots had beaten the mud flatter.
The false way ran too close to a low hollow screened by alder and blackthorn. I found the sow’s marks before we saw her. Deep cuts marked the wet ground, and leaves had been turned where she had rooted before stopping. There were piglet tracks as well, too small to mistake once I found them. She was not ranging wide or hunting men. She was holding one place against feet that had no business coming so near.
Tavin saw the tracks after I showed him where to look. He had known the lower line was wrong after the rain. He had known the sow’s behavior had changed. He had not yet put the two together, and there was no shame in that. A forester knows trees and use. A ranger has to know what happens when trees, beasts, weather, fear, and people begin pulling on one another.
We were too close when she showed herself.
She came out of the brush low and hard, bristles lifted, mud dark on her snout. Tavin held still, which mattered. A man who startles at the wrong moment can turn a warning into an attack. My hand stayed away from Howling. I lowered my shoulders, eased my weight back, and let my eyes rest where they could see without challenging.
Wild empathy is neither speech nor friendship, and a beast does not become tame because a ranger has patience. Most times, all it gives you is the space between warning and blood. I took that space, breathing slowly and making my body smaller without making it prey. I spoke low, not for words, but for shape and steadiness. The sow stamped once and threw wet leaves forward. She swung her head toward the hollow more than toward me. Her anger had a tether, and that was the answer I needed.
We backed away by inches, then by steps. She did not follow past the blackthorn.
After that, the work was simpler and took longer than killing her would have. We blocked the false turn with deadfall and enough thorn to make a tired man curse before pushing through. We reopened the upper line where the ground held. I cut new marks where travelers would see them without carving the trees raw. Tavin walked each bend with me until he could find the way without looking for my hand. We checked where water would run if the next rain came hard. We found a second place likely to fail before Greengrass and marked that too.
When I gave the ealdorman my assessment, I gave it the way I would have given it to the Circle, though I doubt he was used to hearing trail trouble laid out that way. The sow was holding ground, not hunting villagers. The lower trail had failed below the alder bend, two old marks were gone, and someone had widened a deer path until it carried people too close to the bedding hollow. I had blocked the bad turn, remarked the upper line, and left Tavin able to find each mark again. I told him to keep folk to the upper trail until Greengrass, send a woodsman with anyone who had to pass before then, and check the bank after hard rain. Once the piglet tracks moved south or deeper into cover, the lower way could be opened again. Until then, if another traveler was hurt, they were to close it entirely and guide people around rather than send men into the hollow with spears.
It was not a glorious report. It concerned rain, bad guidance, frightened people, a young forester with sense enough to keep a bent pay token, and a sow that wanted her young left alive.
I stayed in Alderwash a few days after that. Long enough to walk the upper marks with Tavin twice more. Long enough for him to show me where charcoal men had begun avoiding one stand of trees because of riders on the old road. Long enough to watch the hollow from a distance and see the sow move her young deeper under cover without anyone putting an arrow in her.
I thought of Eldath’s shrine more than once during those days, though I did not kneel anywhere in the hamlet. There had been no stone basin, no quiet watch, and no one waiting to see whether I remained. There had only been a damaged trail, a frightened animal, and work that needed doing before someone made the trouble worse.
When I left, the cottage was still there behind its crooked fence. Smoke came from the chimney. The child’s shirt was gone from the line. Someone had put a basket near the door where Flora might once have set one, though not in the same place.
The house had gone on without me. I was glad someone had kept the roof sound, though I cannot say every part of me was glad to see it. By the time I took the inland road, the false trail was blocked behind me, the upper marks were clean, and Tavin knew where the next rain would cause trouble. The coast fell away by slow miles. Ahead, Tethyr rose into wet fields, hill roads, and the darker reach of trees I had been born near without ever owning.
I kept southward until the road began turning me east.
