Ceci's journal

[Ellemere]

(Thanks Aileen :p)
Name: Cecilia "Ceci" Malone
Race: Human
Gender: Female
Alignment: Neutral (evil?). Does anything (tags : killing, beating, killing more) for money.
Profession: Mercenary / bodyguard / murderer.
Height: 180 cm (Pros use cms!)
Weight: 70 kg (Pros use also kilograms!)
Hair: Black, with a red flower. The flower represents something important to her
Handeness: Right

Recognizable Features:Blue armor, Red flower, and a giant sword. and is anyway really beautifull. *nod*
Known:
-She is a mercenary
-Cares about "honor", and thinks that robbing is honorless.
-Does not like men in "that" way. (Seadin for example *cough*)

Known to some:
-Works for "Lady" Aileen.
-Does anything what includes killing for money.
-Is a half feminist ((>_<))

Unknown to most:
-Anything includes murdering.
-Her past.
-Hates every feeling which are connected to love or caring.

Unknown even to herself
-What happened to her mother, though she doesn't care.
-Where her real father is.


The first big job

"That midget needs a lesson", Aileen said when we got into Elfsong. I, as always, didn't show any big emotions, just nodded. It was fun, though. Made me to understand that I am able to do something. The plan was following : I'll get Makro, carry him to temple of Bhaal and she does everything else.
So, I disguised myself, went to the trade way near the temple and waited for hours. Finally, a small person walked past. I stopped him, but since he had some *there is clearly some spit added on this part of note* mirror images on, I couldn't say that it was him. So I used my own knowledge - put a feather on my mask and waited for his reaction. And damn, it worked! He was annoyed by the feather so I knew it was him, and attacked him with the hilt of my sword. The fight was though, I almost lost untill he gave few perfect openings and BAM - the end. So I carried him to the temple as planned, put him into a chest and waited. Finally Aileen came, and I began to keep guard. I don't know exactly what happened, but it sounded bad. When she was done, she disappeared -again-, and this "Storm" person walks in. I ran away, of course, didn't want to get caught. So, everything went as planned, and I hope that Lady Aileen will have more job for me in future.

*this page got burned because of an...incident*

[Ellemere]

Letter from Kierran
Other day, I was hanging around the campfire. There was this strange..thing, which didn't like when I said that I'll kill everything which attacks me. So suddenly I was fighting myself! Well, of course I know how I fight so I bested...her me...herme! So, this one man ran away, I didn't really see who.
Later, I heard a whisper that there is assasins near, that was usefull! Suddenly this same man who ran away spawned in front of me..Kierran was his name, and asked that what business I have with Lady Aileen. I said none, since being loyal is the most important thing from a good mercenary. Well, he didn't care and wanted me to deliver a message to her. But, I don't do anything if I don't get money, so I asked for money. Suddenly there was a knife on my throat! Damn, there surely are more nice ways to ask something than threatening, sheesh! Well, I trust on Tymora and still asked for money, I'm still glad that she is on my side. Seems that Kierran understood also that killing me won't help, so the knife disappeared, and he told me what to do : Ask her a meeting place and time. Well, sure! 250 gold isn't too bad for that anyway.
Luckily I found Lady Aileen at Elfsong, and explained everything to her. She said that the time and place will be never. I still haven't delivered the message back, guess that's what you'll get when you're a stealthy one.

*The next few lines have been erased, and a new entry has been added*Aileen asked me to deliver a new message to Kierran, that she wants to meet him, but she wants company with her - me. I'm so proud of myself, to get into a such important work! Can't wait till the meeting comes.


*this page got burned because of an...incident*

[Ellemere]

Message delivered

Well, I finally met that Kierran person, and delivered Lady Aileen's message to him. He actually expected that answer, but he didn't ask who will be with Aileen. Instead, he just asked veeery strange questions, like "What do you know about her" and "What do you want to be" and so on. I mean...the hells I care! I know nothing about Lady, so? That doesn't matter. And I damn want to be the same thing in future I am now. So simple! Well, anyways, after those strange questions he was like...strange. Said that depending on my actions something will happen...wow? Later this some...lady appeared, and was clearly waiting for Kierran. I wonder why...heh.

-Ceci

*added* Oh, he actually complimented me. Said that it's good that I'm a "silent mouth". Well, obviously I'm one because there aren't too many mercenaries around who can be trusted!

-Ceci

*Added again* Well, that was intresting. Some time passed and this troublemaker orc Bozz came and said that there has happened a murder on the bridge, so I followed him. Turned out that Bozz was controlled by something - Hells I know what, and don't really care. Well, big words did he say though until he met my blade. I mean, people should really learn to not underestimate their enemies, no wonder they'll end up dead!
Anyways, I ended that reign of chaos pretty quickly and strangely he thanked me. Well, whatever.

-Ceci

*this page got burned because of an...incident*

[Ellemere]

What is going on?
Ok, this is way too strange. First, I wake up at Ilmater's temple. And I damn don't have any idea what happened. Then, since I only found a poor dress (I don't want to run around naked, that is) I put it on and went to the campfire. Since my forehead was hurting like hell, I really lost my control, which is rare. So there was this one red masked/hooded dude, and he wanted to "make me look fashioned". Well, ok. He dragged me to that...shop. Aello's? Whatever. And gave me a blue dress. Since I wasn't in mood to complain, I put that on. Well, next he said that I'm hiding behind my cloak. Hiding what? Myself? My opinions? My honor? I didn't quite get the answer, but like for the first time, it made me think. I don't like thinking, I like killing. Next, he gave me white gloves. Ok, no complains. I actually (wow, I thought something again, this is bad) don't understand WHY he changed my look. Anyways, there was this lady...Vaania? She wanted me to escort her to the campfire. No problem. But to Beregost, without any equipment? No thanks. I mean..I'm not a monk! Anyways, I went back to Ilmater's temple and found my all PRECIOUS armors and sword! Good end to strange day.

~Ceci

*added* Oh, I met mister Jared. He said that I was in better condition than last time we met. Okay...As far as I know, I've always been the same. He said to ask Storm for more. Whatever.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Whoa
Something strange is really going on. Anyway, this knight looking dude...Thorstar, yeah. He wanted to talk with me, so I went and had a conversication with him. He told me that he saw me talking with some bad looking person. Hells, I don't remember that! I'm sure Lady Aileen will be happy to hear about this.
Later, at the campfire there was some really annoying man. I tried to control myself, but clearly something in me doesn't want to be controlled. Bleh, figures. But figuring things out is stupid! Well, later this same man appears to have like...what. Three diffrent personalities? Each is really annoying, and I just can't control myself. Well, though, I tried to hit him into face, but at the last second I managed to stop myself before doing something bad. I thought also about throwing him into the river. Luckily, that didn't happen. I must really again, try to control myself. Don't want bad reputation as a mercenary who can't damn control herself.
Sigh...I hope Lady Aileen comes here soon.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Fear
Lady Aileen asked me again a very good question ; "Aren't you afraid of anything?" To be honest, the answer is yes. But I don't know what. Perhaps it is death? hell no. Amm....if Lady dies? Yeah, that would definetly be bad. But, as a guard I don't have any space for personal emotions, those are bad. And I really hate thinking also. Anyway, something really strange actually happened also before we talked about fear. I only remember 3 of those huge spiders, then I remember only black, and then I remember Lady staring at me, and 3 dead spiders in front of me. Strange... But I'd not think about that, since it makes me angry. If something happens, and Lady doesn't get hurt, everything is fine, Yeah.
We've been using these disguises for like....much days for now anyway. I wonder that for how long Lady wants me to use this. Not that I'm complaining, but it's really strange. If something wants to kill us, then let's just kill it instead! Oh, and I have a new name now also! Michelle.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Instincts
I hate thinking. And I still damn hate thinking. I hate it! HATE!
-Untill I met Lady Aileen yesterday. I met her at Beregost, and we went to have some drink after some serious talking. I think it was that...one inn, yeah. We went to the kitchen, and I sat on the floor. First we talked something about...something. And then, she suddenly asks me which god or goddes I follow. Tymora, of course! I don't need to show doubts when she is on my side, so I only show self-confidence. And it works. Anyway, she began to ask waaay too strange questions, making me actually to doubt my faith. Luckily enough, she stopped before I lost control...control on what? After that, she began to ask like to...listen to my instincts. Normally I just act like I want, but this time...I realized it. By closing my eyes and calming down a bit, I understood what my instincts are for. To kill. To destroy. To...kill. I'm born to kill.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

No more hiding
Good! Finally I don't have to use disguise anymore, since Lady said so. I finally got Lady meet Thostar, and it all ended up well. We went to the hill ruins talk, or rather they talked. I just watched and listened, like I should do. I don't really know, nor I don't really care what they talked about. Something about that man which I met before, huh. Well, as long as I'll get something to kill. Soo, Thostar told her something, Lady told something back and so on. Then he left, and Lady said to me that no need to use disguise anymore. If some assasin comes at me and attacks, I'll damn kill him or her! If someone DARES to attack Lady, I'll kill him or her and EAT the body! Ok maybe not, but I hope people will know that I'm not so weak as people might think from women.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Hah!
Finally I found some more info about this situation with me and Lady. I met this mister.... Goes by the name of...Kierran? Yeah. I met him and some lady near the spooky house, and this man was instantly like..."What?! How can you be alive?" Well, I, since I was confused, just shrugged. I mean, is it my fault? Definetly. So he asked something (of course!) about things like is Lady alive, and such. I tried to stay silent, but I accidently slip some information out. I still hate myself 'cause that. So, he began to look angry, so I waited for a moment to escape. Unfortunately, I failed. Hah. Anyway, he began to ask questions again, mostly about Lady's "plans". Hell no I'll tell those! I mean, I'd rather die. So, of course there was these "answer or die" things. Lucky for me. I said no, again. Soooo he just like..went into mad-mode and asked something about Lady having a war with ---------\\Secret//. Anyway, I managed to talk my way out, not sure still how that happened. "Yeah, tell everything to your mistress" or something like that. Well, of course.

Well, on my way back to Gate, I met that...that...Blue person. Yeah. Storm? I really prefer Blue person, or thing. Anyway, I said that Mister Jared told me to ask from him about that moment, what I don't remember. He was like..."Well, Jared is wrong as always". So much about that plan. Anyway, as he walked on and I followed him, he asked how Lady is doing right now. I, trying to stay silent about everything said that I don't know any Aileen. That plan didn't succees. Wonder why. Anyway, he wanted an answer. So I said that it isn't his business. Well, he surely is a strange one. I mean, he just began to insult me as a "Lesser one"! And called Lady as one also! That...That...Windbag! So I said that it isn't his business and walked off. I wonder if Lady wants me to deal with him someday.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Parents

Yet again (damn, there is no end in this) Lady asked me a good question : What my parents were, or are? I actually haven't thought anything about them for like...6 years. And there is 6 years too less! Mom (I don't remember her name actually, nor that I'd care) was useless bitch. The only good thing she did was to give birth to me. And that's it. She never did anything, always made me to do everything. My luck turned about 8 years ago, when she disappeared. And damn, stay in that stinky hole! I don't want to see you, ever!
Father, on the other hand, was my idol. He was a mercenary, like I am, and always told me to do as said, nothing else or nothing less and trust in Tymora. Well, I did that, unless that Lady of "luck" turned her back to me. Things with that blue thing...Storm. I mean, blue thing, he deserves no name. And everything else.

Luckily I have Lady Aileen, who always has a plan if things suck.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Assasin

Funny! I was having a conversication (again) with Lady, and she told me that she saw a 'bitch' who has been trying to kill her, or something, for a long time. So she didn't tell anything but how that 'bitch' is stupid. Like, falling for trap and so on. Well, after she had finished, we proceeded to Beregost, and she continued her way towards somewhere. Me, well, I went back to explore that maze in cloakwood. But suddenly, when I got there, a damn assasin scratches my back! I have zero tolerance to bastards like assasins, so I just attacked her (instead of scratching) with my sword. Well, being fragile, or something, she didn't stand well against me so I knocked her out. So, I tied her, and waited until she woke up. "Bitch!", she yelled. I, who wanted some answers instead of useless treaths, put a sword on her neck and kindly asked "Who are you?". She did answer something, but I don't remember it anymore. Nor that it's important anyway. Suddenly, she told me that Aileen had sent her to eliminate me. Now that's crap! Why would Lady do that? I mean, I'm her loyaliest (and the only) bodyguard, and something, friend?
So, I waited, stared at her, figuring out what to do. Taking her away would've been impossible, since those woods are full of people always. So after a lot of thinking, I decided to simply kill her. Like, for good. I took my sword, and thrusted her heart with it. Much blood. Much.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Undeads

Seriously! For past five days, two goddamn super-undead has decided to ruin my day!
First, at the Haunted House, a ghost, or something (I don't know) came and looke at her dead trees. Well, of course they're dead! Trees don't live indoors! And, she glanced at me, while I stared at her, and called some, like, three of those armors to attack me and yelled like "Play nice, my kids!" Me, well, I tried to stay alive. After the "playing" part was over, she began to talk to me, and asked questions like "are you here to rob my house?". Hell no! Robbing is DISHONORABLE! Well, actually, I didn't get a chance to reply when she came into a conclusion that I'm going to rob her. Crap. So...more armors, zombies, whatever, everything just came and came at me! I amazed myself to see how good I am against those bastards. Later, she ran out of those (thank god) and was veeeery mad since I "destroyed her children". And...she tried to get me to like play there with her forever and something like that. No thanks, really. So..she attacked me, with the intention to turn me into one like she is, no thanks! So, I defended myself, but I could really feel her sadness..anger..everything running down in my body, so I didn't have other choice than to run. Guess I have to add that to my "to do" list. Meh.

Later, as I was talking with Lady at the Bhaal temple, a priest of his just came out and was like.."mortal flesh.." and didn't find us. Well, later he did. He was also saying that we disrespect his lord and bla bla so on. Well, then, some miss popped up and the priest didn't like her. Well, actually the miss killed this priest, but then, as expected, more undead came. I couldn't control myself, so I threw myself into the battle! Only I remember that it was fun, and next I woke up a undead important looking priest next to me. He let me go, if me and Lady went to Candlekeep to capture some hafling. *insert here alot of text, which has apparently been overrided by much lanes. Wonder why?* We brought the halfling to him, and he just was like.."you may go". Pfft! No reward? This insults my mercenary reputation.

~Ceci

[Ellemere]

Siege.

KABOOM! Well, not really. I was walking towards Gate from Candlekeep, and at the farmlands I noticed a really massive dragon! I mean, dragon! I've never seen one. Anyway, it told something about massive army somewhere. Lovely! A great battle is just what I've been looking for! Anyway, the dragon flew off, and that..duke person came and ordered everyone to go inside Gate and defend it with our lives. Well, this didn't make me happy! Always discuss the payment first! This hurts my honor (again) as a mercenary, goddamit. So...I decided to protect a wizard of some sort, since I didn't have too much choice, and now KABOOM! This army began to use sieges against us, and we were trapped like cowards! Lesson : Don't be a coward. Anyway, I began to dodge as best I could. I think actually none hit me, phew! While I saw other people dying and dying. So, then, they broke the gate, finally, and I ran into battle! Oh yeah..it was fun. Goblins, something, trolls, everything just keep coming and coming! I didn't mind my wounds, just kept killing and killing. Later, they ran out of soldiers and retreated, and this was the point when we stopped being cowards and went to the fields to battle. At this point, I met a priestess of something, cold? Whatever, I don't care. Anyway, she had almost the same thoughts as I have, so I decided to move with her. Mainly we complained about the no payment thing. Anyway, at the farms, I moved with her and we killed everything, without problems. There was some red wizard bastards also, but they aren't that strong luckily. Later, as the farmlands had been won for us, we moved to Fields of the dead, and there was some crap and dragons. More dragons! As I really wanted to try my blade on the first one, I moved with the mass and killed the other ones. Was fun. Seems that the dragons were the bosses of this army, so that useless duke and told us that we've been great and so on. So, at this point, I asked with Miss Irini about the payment, and they actually gave us gold! 2,000 shinining pieces! Hells, I'm not complaining. Payment for actually having fun.

~Ceci

\\Thanks to dms, was fun but laggy event <3.


(There is missing the text : Ceci <3 Irini)

[Ellemere]

Pixie adventure

Never mess with suspcisious looking people at bars! I was at one, talking with this rather suspicious looking lady, named Xysaliarat. I was going to get s'moer beer...when I fell down. I think there was corpse, or something, of a halfling on the floor. Anyway, my beer glass flew straight at Xysa's head, and next I remember is that she got angry and I woke up at farmlands - As a damn pixie! Well, I didn't know how to fly, as the body was kinda funny, so I decided to walk. After realizing few times that it's slow, I decided to try flying again. Seems my mind did know really how to fly, so I flew. Wheee, it was funny! So, I met Jonas and someones at the bridge, and they goddammit ignored me! Well, not minding this, I went to the campfire where I met my savios. Two dwarfs, two humans, and a halfling. After some talking they believed that I am a human actually, and proceeded to escort me to Candlekeep. At candlekeep, we talked with this..Gorion person, who found this quite fasinating. After some talking, one of the dwarves realized that damn Xysa is a dragon! Or rather, the name sounds like one's. So, as they were unable to dispel it, Gorion teleported us to a friend of his, white dragon! Too much dragons for past few weeks..really. So, the white dragon was unable to dispel it also, so she gave us some dragon blood and said to seek out Xysa herself - from the damned Underdark! Well, luckily she teleported us near to it, and we proceeded to ask guidance from drows, acting as merchants. So, I acted as a slave master, Dennis I think was his name as my underling, and others as slaves. After some talking they did indeed believe that I'm a dragon hunter merchant, and for the dragon blood one of the drows gave us a dwarf of some sort to lead us to the dragon. So...Xysa actually was there, and she proceeded to laugh at me. Well, thanks! No one told me that this curse would be temporary. Well, it actually is. Fun. So, this dragon didn't like us anyway so she proceeded to attack us, and we did so also. She died. Later, as the whitey one had promised, she teleported us back from the underdark and told us that it was indeed a temporary curse, not permament or anything. Me? I didn't care, but the other people weren't happy so there was one dead dragon more. Lovely.

~Ceci

\\Never be target for Emo's accident missclicks, seriously.

[Ellemere]

Druids, lovers, whatsoever + nicknames

Ok...I've really bad memory of names, so I decided to make a list of people who needs to be remembered, or otherway are just annoying.

Aileen - Lady Aileen
Jared - Mister Burns ((Simpsons, anyone ?))
Irini - Cold Lady
Storm - The blue thing
Kierran - Spooky man
Triad - Three-minded-retard
Jonas - Mister good good
Eleanor - Miss Bear
Skazz - Dwarfie
Raymond - Bear kisser
Elivani - Lady Elivani
Berel - Mister Berel
Moldister - Mister Beard
Hath...person - The funny swordman
Anyone else : Miss/Lady or Mister *name*

Ok..enough of nicknames. Anyway, the hell is up with these walking bears, and kissers and lovers, whatsoever going around! People walking around in bear form, damn druids. People walking around with hoods inside cities, damn law breakers. People kissing each other inside city, damn lovers!
Some time ago, as I was sitting on the trade way, enjoying the sunset and sunrise, next to Temple of Bhaal (which still gives me chills, that priest there...). Well, I got bored, and began to walk towards Candlekeep. Then I saw this huge goddamn bear! Well, there was this three-minder-retard (see above) and some other person. They were like just, staring at this bear. Then POFF! It turns into a human woman. Well, I don't goddamn trust bears who turns into human, or is it other way around? Whatever, so I asked her what would a druid-bear taste. Strangely enough, she didn't like this question. Anyway, I walked back to Gate. Later, after having a good nap at Elfsong, I walked to the streets and noticed this Raymond person. After some talking, I managed to get him to remove his hood. People are always breaking laws. Bad. Anyway, then this Eleanor bear before walked into the scene, and they like began to kiss each other! Well, I frowned at them and said to get a room. They did that actually, and Raymond called me a ..what was it..tin can? "I wouldn't like to kiss a tin can anyway". Pfft, couldn't care more!


~Ceci