Robin Alastaire

[Kauno]

Robin Alastaire.

First memory

On this morning, I snuck my way outside the cave, while Mom was still sleeping, just....just so i could see the morning sun for once.....just once without needing to ask her for days....
After maybe..I don't know...some time i was looking at the horizon, where i could see the rest of the Tribe down the hill...."I would like to go down there and maybe play with the other orc kids....but mom said I can't...and they must not see me....I wonder why...". All of a sudden, I hear mom screaming, pushing and breaking things inside the cave! I start to run, a little panicked when i see her going out, looking at me with rage, almost leaping toward me, grabbing my arm and throwing me back inside with terrible force... I...I feel so bad....I should have never gone outside.....I hurt...
Later this night....S-She read me again this book she always have....It talks about love and acceptance...i don'T get all of it or why she wants me to listen so seriously...but i like what it says...I think she forgave me for what I did this morning...

Second memory

I've had an argument with mom today... I really want to get out of the cave during the day. The night runs are boring and I don't see really good, why can't i just go outside! She does, why can'T I!!?? There are tons of orcs outside training with each other! Chanting and Eating, shouting stuff about Gruumsh or somehitng. I know i seen them! Why can't i just go and see others.... Each time i try and leave she is there to push me back in! And I can't stand those chains anymore....To protect me!?? No way! What could happen anyway!!??

Third Memory

I haven't seen mom in days now, i know she went to the tribe for something....I'm still chained and i ran out of food, where is she!!!?? I kept shouting but i can forget it...no one will hear me.

Later that week, she came back, I screamed at her! I was so angry!....but she looked sad, and exhausted, there was blood on her outfit, and she was bruised... she didn't even stop before me before going to bed....I think i'll just shut up and wait...

Fourth memory

I brawled all day with my brothers today! There's no way they can win against me haha! Anyway i know everythign about their way to think, hey i'm the one who helped mom giving them birth a couple years ago, no way those cubs can surpass me! They grow up so fast though, and they getting much larger than me.

Fifth memory

I'm so angry!! I'm still chained here while my bros are having fun outside!...They can even go to the tribe!! Arrrrh!! I just destroyed everything around me trying to unchain myself.........DARN I HATE THEM!......
They always come back in the cave with some wierd ways to talk.. They keep naming the great Gruumsh, and they stopped talking to me...Well i know mom told them not to say a word about me...that's....that's crazy i don'T understand a thing! All she does is putting me alone, she even put my brothers against me!! WHY!!!?? And she keeps reading me this book almost each night now, and she alwasy cry! THIS MAKES NO SENSE!

Sixth memory

I...I think i'm dying....It...it hurt so much...I can't even scream!...why...why did they do that...my brothers took my right eye with a dagger!!....There is so much blood i cannot see with my remaining one.....They even knock down mom screaming stuff about gruumsh, they beat me all day long with clubs...I can't even defend myself with the chain.....!...I...I just want mom to wake up...please....make this stop..

Seventh Memory

My brothers suddently showed more respect toward me since the incident... they are still not talking to me though...but they stopped beating me....I don'T get all of it but... whatever they will do...I will still love them...and accept their ways....as what the Celanil book says... And I respect their Gruumsh rituals, they seem to be very fond of it. Apparently they are part of raids and godly hunts as they call it. I would LOVE to go along with them, but I will never be part of it...i don'T even know what they raid and why.

Eight Memory

I'm Screaming so LOUD my voice is completely broken, Will those chains break!!! I can hear terrible screaming outside, and warcries!! WHAT IS HAPPENING! I see fire lights from inside the cave!
I...I DID IT! I BROKE THE CHAIN! I WAS STRONG ENOUGH!! I then run outside with haste to see what is this terrible event.
Everything is burning, part of the f....f...f-forest around me, the w-whole tribe down there i-is burning...I-I can't even stand on my l-legs... E-Everyone is dead, I-I can't see my family a-anywhere....
S-Strange persons came to me...T-they have pointy ears and light brownish skin....T-they are taking me!!...I-I tried t-to defend, a-and all this rage is consuming me! I took some of them d-down but they are w-way too many!!...AAARRHH I WANT THEM TO DIE!!! I'LL KILL THEM ALL!!!

Ninth Memory

I am leaving....l-leaving that city in the trees.....They tried t-to explain me what happened....O-one of them talking m-my tongue, told me I was not an orc...or something.....T-they showed me i was like them....an...elf t-they said. T-They accepted to help me retrieve mom's body on t-the battlefield and gave her a-aproper burial in hope t-this would calm my raging behavior... T-they told me she was not completely orcish....that s-she was part h-human....i'm not sure w-what that means.... b-but all i know is that i-i cannot stay here....even if i am free to live with them...t-they are still those who killed a-all my brothers...
They gave me back my book too, they said it belonged to my mother...b-but not to the half orc o-one. I have Elven parents, and their seal is drawn on the last page... T-The orc talking elf told me that this book is making me part of t-the Correlon community, or something like t-that... And that if i had to l-leave, I had to start searching for my parents, s-starting my search at Baldur, s-some city on t-the other coast. I hesitated t-to leave when i was on the g-ground, looking at t-the city in the grand trees....this place i-is so warm...w-with beautiful people with g-good hearts it seems..No...I must go a-and see for myself w-where i come from...I must never come back from Baldur's Gates.