If you please excuse me,
gah... *she sighs*, I really don't like to start
with something I rather avoid to say,
same as to thank anyone for anything,
but that's off the point now,
.. anyway...
Nobody asked me, I was just born into this misery.
Don't blame it on me and best you leave me be anyway,
we most likely won't get along.
I can't stand your kindnesses and your wisdom that
you love to teach me so much.
Best to make sure you act the way you suggest yourself, I say.
You care for me? I heard better lies.
Oh, you think you are better than me?
Now we are getting somewhere. That's ok. Choke on it.
You know?
All I know is that I am better than some.
And I know those made a mistake in not taking my life as well when they had the chance.
......

......
He wasn't a good man. Beating up wife and daughter when drunk proves it.
No! *her voice rather angry now* it's not an excuse!
If only we had enough money it sure would have been different.
If only we had enough money he sure wouldn't have agreed to that "job" they offered.
If only he wouldn't be such a damned drunk fool we might just have had the money
at least he probably wouldn't have messed up that job.
I know this is sick,
but sometimes I wish I would be back home with mom and dad around,
however bad that time was actually.
I wish it because if I were it would mean nothing happened.
I need another drink now. Nothing I like to remember, you know?
.......
Come on, don't tell me I shouldn't drink.
You asked, now shut up and listen and let me have my drink ... or leave.
Don't tell me what to do anyway!
*she emptied her drink almost half before she put the glass
back on the table and got lost into thoughts.
Half a minute later she got back, seemed almost embaressed
as she noticed where she actually was and who she was talking to*
You know? Can't say I worship her,
but I had even prayed to Shar to have my revenge.
She knows a little about that and she knows where they hide.
No, no, ... you can't just hide from that mistress.
*she was grinning for a moment but that expression turned
into a bitter mix of sadness and hate
and it seemed like she reminded something,
a fateful decision she made while back or so.
Then she reached out for her glass to empty it*
*another short moment of silence followed*
I should go now and find that strange looking mage.
He said he knows about ways to introduce me to
someone that will prove useful to me.
Hmm? ... Yes, yes, I'll be careful. Don't worry about me.
Soon I'll leave this town so we probably won't meet again anyway.
.........
gah... *she sighs*, I really don't like to start
with something I rather avoid to say,
same as to thank anyone for anything,
but that's off the point now,
.. anyway...
Nobody asked me, I was just born into this misery.
Don't blame it on me and best you leave me be anyway,
we most likely won't get along.
I can't stand your kindnesses and your wisdom that
you love to teach me so much.
Best to make sure you act the way you suggest yourself, I say.
You care for me? I heard better lies.
Oh, you think you are better than me?
Now we are getting somewhere. That's ok. Choke on it.
You know?
All I know is that I am better than some.
And I know those made a mistake in not taking my life as well when they had the chance.
......

......
He wasn't a good man. Beating up wife and daughter when drunk proves it.
No! *her voice rather angry now* it's not an excuse!
If only we had enough money it sure would have been different.
If only we had enough money he sure wouldn't have agreed to that "job" they offered.
If only he wouldn't be such a damned drunk fool we might just have had the money
at least he probably wouldn't have messed up that job.
I know this is sick,
but sometimes I wish I would be back home with mom and dad around,
however bad that time was actually.
I wish it because if I were it would mean nothing happened.
I need another drink now. Nothing I like to remember, you know?
.......
Come on, don't tell me I shouldn't drink.
You asked, now shut up and listen and let me have my drink ... or leave.
Don't tell me what to do anyway!
*she emptied her drink almost half before she put the glass
back on the table and got lost into thoughts.
Half a minute later she got back, seemed almost embaressed
as she noticed where she actually was and who she was talking to*
You know? Can't say I worship her,
but I had even prayed to Shar to have my revenge.
She knows a little about that and she knows where they hide.
No, no, ... you can't just hide from that mistress.
*she was grinning for a moment but that expression turned
into a bitter mix of sadness and hate
and it seemed like she reminded something,
a fateful decision she made while back or so.
Then she reached out for her glass to empty it*
*another short moment of silence followed*
I should go now and find that strange looking mage.
He said he knows about ways to introduce me to
someone that will prove useful to me.
Hmm? ... Yes, yes, I'll be careful. Don't worry about me.
Soon I'll leave this town so we probably won't meet again anyway.
.........

