Beatrix the Bloody

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Beatrix had seen slaughters of people of importance and the guards guarding them. She had seen the torture and death that those women and men who were learning the arts of assassins beside her. she had felt the torture both mental and physical upon herself to make sure she had no pesky emotions to make her hesitate. She had mentally tortured and killed people herself. None of this compared to what she saw when she approached that town.... there was nothing left.... just bodies of dead and the burning town. Death and destruction of an entire town was not what Beatrix was used to seeing, let alone done by assassins. Bhalists killed this town completely, this wasn't assassination Beatrix wasn't even sure if this could be defined by such a simple word as "murder". The sight sickened her, though it may have just been morning sickness. She was just glad that the assassins that did this stuck around to be cut down by her arrows and the swords of her companions.
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Bhalists can now be added to the list of people after her. Its so wonderfull to have the followers of the Lord of Murder seeming to have specific interest in her, and there is one thing she is certain of.... if she did not have her friends and allies, she would be dead. Her ability to defend herself isn't what it should be due to her pregnancy making it hard to use her weapon, and the Bhalist murderers, she still didn't think they had the refined skill to be labeled as "Assassins", made attempts specificly on her.... thwarted only by her her friends and her love locking her in a room in the Friendly arm inn and defending her from the murderers who tried to kill her. Bently was not happy about the blood soaking his inn but Beatrix felt relieved that she had friends to count on, and knew that even though these murders were dispatched....... there would likely be more....... there always are more.
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Beatrix wanted to scream in frustration..... Renec and the others were walking into danger and she was told to be a good girl and sit and wait in the church! She understood the reasoning but doing nothing and being confined by four walls and a door were not for her! She'd done this before.... it didn't end well... Sure staying in the Temple was safe... surrounded by Fist members and Knights of the Radiant Heart, but she longed to be by her friends sides and see them through the challenges. Staying behind merely made her worry that someone might not come back, and she spent time alternating between praying, eating her pickles covered in chocolate and sour cream, and pacing the halls trying to think of the next prank to pull on whom to release her stress and uncertainty. She allready knew what to pull on Aerin, had a good idea for Jonas though knew it probobly wouldn't work, and a prank for Renec crossed her mind even with the thought "when he gets back" just to assure her he would return.

To make matters worse...... she felt that she was meant for more than sitting at home and holding down the fort for the other adventurers to return.... this wasn't her and never would be..... she had to be out there helping people, to repay the world for the harm she caused to people, but she knew that the child she carried should not be risked, and that as much as she could not stand being confined and her movements restricted.... the childs safety was more important than anything.... even her own personal needs.
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How do you tell the Father of the child your carrying that you nearly lost it? How do you face all the people whom have worked so hard to protect you from danger when you nearly destroyed everything they worked for in a stupid instant trying to help someone? Parents killed, captive by assassins..... undead ones to boot that was new.... how could B say no? she's always had a soft spot for children who have lost their family.... its how she met Sheira and started this path she walked now... but she was badly wounded on the assault to rescue the child..... and all she could think of when she recovered her senses was if her own child was allright and how she would face Renec and those who helped her.... she'd made a stupid mistake and it was too late to leave well enough alone and cut her losses, she was deep in the catacombs now and while her and those she were with had seriously put a dent in the undead army that had been threatening the Sword Coast..... walking out without the child was not an option.....
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She knew it would be wrong to hide it from Renec, she never could hide anything from him, nor did she want to. Beatrix had never been one to fully grasp the intricacies of relationships having been nothing but a tool and those whom she formed "Relationships with" were merely dead at the end. the only ongoing "relationship" she ever had was Crow... the master that made her into a deadly assassin and used her for whatever he wanted to.... she was a tool... a pet to him, it wasn't a real relationship.

The near loss of their child seemed to hit Renec hard, and he left her to "think things through" there had just been a conversation of "what ifs" not being helpfull to people, but Beatrix could only consider "What if" while she sat in the room alone crying after Renec left.....

"What if he leaves me?"
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Strawberry, blueberry, sour cream, chocolate pickles with cookies to hold it all together..... it sounded horrible to many and Beatrix was sure that it tasted horrible to most, but to her it tasted like Blue Whinnis or at least as close as she was going to get to it, her favorite poisonous spices were forbidden her while she was pregnant so she had to experiment to get the taste right. She didn't expect anyone to understand but after about a hundred years of spicing her foods with poisons to build up a resistance to them, the taste of them had a bit of a calming effect on her, letting her know she had survived where others had fallen and she would continue to survive. Renec still was with her but busy off doing his thing a lot of the time, he had just been shocked was all she had nothing to worry about but she wanted to spend more time with him now, he's been gone a lot.
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It was oddly silent.... though there had been chaos earlier when it was first realized what was happening. She made no sound.... the only sounds in the room were the midwives telling her what to do the closed door blocked people outside from observing what was happening. Soon the quiet was pierce by the screaming of a newborn, and still the mother made no sound, those outside perhaps thought she had died in childbirth, but once the door opened she was seen quite alive, if a bit pale and exhausted.... but smiling such as never seen on her face before..... The tool of death finally understanding life a bit more, and knowing its value better.
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She saw the world differently now than when she had first arrived on the Sword Coast. Watching those around her move through the land sharing a kind smile and a friendly greeting with her brought her small near-smile to her face, one thing she had yet to master... give her a bow and arrow and she could shoot a fly off a horse from a hundred and ten feet away without startling the horse... perhaps father, but ask her to share a smile and her lips could only twitch ever so slightly upwards unless it involved one of her loved ones... they brought the true smiles out to B's face. Still she had many years left in her to learn to smile again.... so many years left in her unfinished story, granted many places still wanted her for her past, most notable Corymyr, but in her mind Beatrix the Bloody was allready dead.... and Bea Rokranon was all that remained.
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