I am a comic book writer. I will not give my name, obviously, for I value my privacy.
My writing...tends to be very Dystopian. And my views tend to be very much those of a "Haughy intellectual."
Desmodu is a character that I am using to truly try and get inside of the mind of a complete Anarchist, and a COMPLETE Sociopath. Very much a Joker-like Character.
This character, however, is a Hero instead of a Villain. Imagine if Joker..and Batman...were the SAME PERSON.
And yes, he is Schizophrenic. As all bloody Hell.
And, I won't lie, I project a lot of myself onto Desmodu because I, as a human being, suffer from severe depression, Anxiety, and probably a BIT of Schizophrenia. The thing is that my own experiences of such I do with them what any good Comedian does:
...I turn them into Material.
Life and Pain, they are the best teachers, right? And if you're too stupid to learn a lesson from Pain, well, you're too stupid to learn anything.
Some of the things he says and does are incredibly rude, crude, and socially unacceptable. And I want to let everybody know: I APOLOGIZE FOR THAT.
Desmodu is my attempts to get inside of a character that is so rude, so vulgar, thinks only of himself, has a complete hatred for Government, Religion, Civilization in general, that he's a complete and utter Nihilist and the Epitome of Narcicissm in the fact that he does, in fact, believe himself to be his own God...and that nobody controls his fate but him.
He holds complete and utter hatred and contempt for Mankind, seeing them as Stupid, inadequate creatures so busy hating each other that they'll never accomplish anything.
Let me tell you all a little bit about myself, and perhaps this may give you all a reason to understand why I like to get a rise out of people.
I"m a also a real-life comedian. I am a very staunch libertarian. My comedy, as such, reflects that.
The problem with a Progressive Thinking Libertarian comedian...is that we rub a LOT of people the wrong way. The thing is, rubbing them the wrong way ...let's us know that our Comedy is doing exactly what we want it to. Making ourselves HEARD. And pissing off people who disagree with us or find us offensive.
The Comic Book I am writing, which I will not go into personal details here because it's still very much in the "Writing" phase is set in a VERY Dystopian Future with a Totalitarian Government.
The Protagonist is a man who has become so disillusioned by his government, religion, and society in general that he has gone both insane and schizophrenic trying to make sense of it all.
The best way to describe Desmodu as a character is that he is both Batman AND Joker. Thor AND Loki.
Like Thor: He's heavily armored, as boisterious as the Wind itself, and yearns to protect mankind.
But he is also like Loki. He holds contempt for them. He sees them wallowing in their own stupidity and takes no shortage of pleasure out of pranking them and watching them suffer.
The thing is: Because he himself has suffered so much pain, he has learned, THE HARD WAY, that Pain and Suffering make people strong.
And he sees that, just like a Mother Wolf who has to, sometimes, watch her children go hungry a few nights until they learn to hunt for themselves....that Humanity will only survive when they learn to fend for themselves. Without Gods. Without Government. Without Borders.
He both Loves and Hates Man. He sees their potential...but mocks them for their stupidity.
He looks down upon them. But also realizes that looking down upon someone helps to give one a wider perspective.
He sees all of their flaws. But then he sympathizes with them because he realizes their flaws are so similar to his own.
Anyways: Just wanted to clear this up.
I know that some of the jokes I make offend people.
And I want to say: I'm sorry.
Desmodu is a gigantic, Roller-coaster of a Ride that I use as a means, as a writer, to get inside of the head of a Man who is the most LITERAL extreme of "Anarchist."
And maybe, just maybe, use him as a way so that we can all laugh about it.
I just wanted to post this. As a personal apology to any member of the BGTSCC "Theatre." Either the "Cast", the players...or the "Crew Member" the DM team...that I have offended, in any way.
I see this server, this character, as a means of testing this character...on an Audience.
You, the BGTSCC cast and crew...YOU are my "Test Audience."
And I have listened to your Feedback.
I have listened to your criticisms.
But I also could not TELL ANYBODY what I was doing.
You were my lab rats for this character. Because I needed to KNOW how the "Real World", even a Fantasy one, would react to him. Baldur's Gate, this server, and it's people have been, effectively, my "Clinical Trials" for this character so that I can begin writing his story.
And I want to simultaneously Thank all of the people who have given me positive insight.
And I want to simultaneously APOLOGIZE to any and all people on this server that I may have ever offended.
It was not my intention, in the slightest, to actually hurt anybody.
..but I NEEDED to offend people. Because I needed to study and push to the VERY EDGE what people would find OFFENSIVE...
...and yet still stay within the Rules so that I was not banned.
The reason that so many of the characters I play on this server had such similar personalities and mannerisms are that, quite literally..
...this character has undergone revisions. Many times.
First, he was Geist von Mitternacht. The Anarch Rogue, who was a master of tactical Guerilla Warfare.
Then, he was Sarkhan Dragonspeaker. A Druid of Malar who hated mankind so much that he would rather just Devour them than put up with them.
Then he became Desmodu. The outspoken, Boisterous Storm-Singer who believes in the power of Words above all other things, and DEMANDS to be heard.
All different versions of the SAME character that I was writing for the Comic I am currently writing. A book that, for me, is two years in the making.
This story that I am writing, I consider it my Magnum Opus as a writer.
And I want to thank you all for helping me do it. Even if you didn't realize that you were.
I hope, for the love of God, that this helps to clear this all up, and why I act and roleplay the way that I do.
Thank you for reading.
----Kitteninablender
