Moving on.

[yyj]

Maybe this post should've made sooner but here it is. Better late than never.

Neverwinter nights game has been unisntalled from my PC for a few days now so do not expect to see me around anytime soon.

First I would like to apologize to all the people that was roleplaying with me and I am sad that the stories we had together will not continue for the time being. I cannot say if I am ever going to dedicate more time here in the future because there's a lot of people that I love and care for and I will be sad that we won't be playing again soon though I will try to keep an eye on my discord DMs for anyone who wants to say hello to me.

I don't know if my influence on this community was good, bad or mixed. I am certainly not without issues and I have been dealing with a crippling mental disorder for years that many people probably noticed and most were sensitive enough to not mention it to me.

One reason for leaving is due to a videogame addiction, and when someone life, work and personal relations deteriorate because of a videogame then things need to change for good and for the better of my health and person.

Another reason for leaving is escapism, I found myself thinking about BGTSCC during the day and often times to avoid thinking about other things that were more important than fantasy land and this goes hand in hand with the addiction.

I will mention the community here and yes will talk about toxicity of course, someone asked me about it and I was afraid of talking about it back then, but now I feel that it needs to be said.
Yes, I have made many toxic comments before and had many outrageous hot takes about things. Looking back at it, I haven't changed my opinion about most things, some would say that I was just being honest and others will say that I am an BEEP (forum wont let me type what I wanted to say). Such is life, you can't be liked by everyone. I don't have many regrets but many times I was quick to type before even analyzing the situation first, apologies to anyone who may been offended ever, on the other hand there are many things that I won't miss, mainly selfish attitudes, bullies, elite roleplayers and trolls, people that only look after their own fun at the detriment of others that are just looking to tell their own story and walk on top of othee people.
On the other hand...
I met so many people here that I have a deep respect and admiration for, either as roleplayers, human beings, gamers or all of them. I think the majority of this community are amazing people, I would like to name a few but I don't want to miss anyone, but you know who you are.


I feel that I may probably play again at some point, I hope that this server lasts for many more years and it probably will because staff pours their heart and souls on the server to make sure it's always fresh and interesting.

I am typing from my phone as I am on vacation right now enjoying some quality time with my family and this probably has a lot of typos.

Finally, I leave some suggestions on how to make this community better.

1. Get some discord moderators, seriously one person cannot do everything.
2. Get community managerst, whose job is to BAN and make sure that rules are followed (DMs should only tell stories)
3. Players, please please help out newbs, and please do not be rude to people whose english is 2nd language.
4. Stop using voice chat while roleplaying, it sucks.
Edit: 5. Stop worrying about items, instead just ask the DMs "we were supposed to lose that fight or why was the monster so OP?"... (This is half joke, half serious, but honestly, just go grind, and if you don't grind, why you feel you need epix items for?)

With all that said, see you later BG.

[Maecius]

Best of luck to you, yyj. I applaud your decision to take a break. When a video game is causing you undue stress or distraction, it's usually a good idea to take a break.

When you're ready to return, we'll be glad to welcome you back! Until then, be well and keep smiling.

[Louvaine]

I hope you find whatever you are looking for, yyj. Good luck!

[mastajabba]

To be Honest Discord Chat is lit during RP IMHO. I think it’s lead to some OOC aquatainces such as my lvl 1.75 friend Dae

[Tanlaus]

Sorry to see you go yyj but yeah if the game is taking precedence over RL priorities then stepping away is probably the best thing you can do. No one in their right mind would begrudge that.

[edmaster]

We've have had our disagreements on Discord many times, mostly for Bad puns and Jokes, Just know, i never took anything you said personally! Enjoy your Vacation! and see you around.

[DM Gixustrat]

You’re good people and I hope you can return for a moderate amount of relaxation when ya feel healthy enough.

[Trinket]

All the best yyj. Good suggestions too. Moderators in the world could help smooth things out.

[Lockonnow]

well i call it treasure hunter but anyway you have keep this server a live with us others but no one told us to stay for ever I cant get my self yet to play other games then this

[Hoital]

Will miss you, but totally understand! RL is important, mental health is important. I hope you get things sorted quickly and easily. We'll be here if and when you decide to come check in on us.

[Steve]

In the recent past, we talked about getting off on the wrong foot. But in every healthy community there is growth, and we all can agree that we come to BGTSCC, and stay within the community, with a desire for a healthy experience. Healthy, in the term of a positive experience. If that is not at the moment what you can find, even not a small taste of it in far flung corners of it, then a pause is probably best, as you’ve decided to take for yourself, yyj. Cheers, and good luck out there in RL!

[bharring]

First thought: sad to see you go.

Second thought:

One reason for leaving is due to a videogame addiction, and when someone life, work and personal relations deteriorate because of a videogame then things need to change for good and for the better of my health and person.

Glad to see you go, but only for this reason.

Many of us have some draw that we cannot moderate. For me it's books (I spent a week where I ate 3 meals all week, and otherwise did not leave my place, just read books... Had to fix that). I'm glad you can see your addiction, and can manage it yourself.

Thank you for playing with us. I hope you find happiness in whatever other hobbies you throw yourself into.

[Whirlwind]

RP'd with a couple of your characters briefly in the past and enjoyed it.

Regarding your message, I admire anyone self-aware enough to identify what they feel are their own self-destructive behaviours and work to fix them - so good on you.

Take care and hopefully speak / RP again with you in the future.

If not though then good luck to you in whatever you do.

[Winterborne]

Please keep in touch. It's not goodbye for me, it's see you later.

[Shadowspinner70]

One of the most frustrating things was seeing you grow less and less happy but not wanting to pry. You're an awesome woman, yyj, and it takes wisdom to realize something like this. If you ever need something, just ask, please, and you have it.

You've been an excellent friend and a role-play partner I've always enjoyed playing with on here. You'll always be welcome here.