Possible Break

[Yugo]

This is something i have been considering for a while, and will continue to do so in the coming week. People stay reassured the still present event i will attend. and make sure i am present. Most of the house divine plot, rest assured i will be there.

So, I may, in the coming month take a break of NVN2 for perhaps a month or two... more perhaps?? I will ponder.... I do not intent permanent retreat but I am seriously thinking about a retreat.

Honestly, my health is flinching, fainting from lack of sleep, mostly more engaged in this world than this one as I am tired of the political turmoil and the mess it has become.

Since the death of my dear love Elaine, sleep have been a luxury, lost many dear in RL friends as well, Job sucks, my family will soon be mostly extinct my grand parents are almost all gone, soon my mother will be dead because genetic is fickle and well might soon have to give up my greatest hobby RL so all and all?
Even if this isn't of your business to care or show empathy or sympathy for I am tired and wish I could have at times have a sleep from which i would never wake up.

This video game is one of the last thing holding my though process together, pushing dark impulses away, for now as well i chose to escape and have fun instead of mostly chose to surrender.

At least, live with a fantastic room mates i consider my real family. fantastic people. However life is hollow and mostly bleak. lost most motivation, joy, and right now a battle to regain such i used to feel. I just await for a break before more bad karma hits the fan.

This said, thank you for the awesome community, awesome players in particular:
Penwise, Dragonfigure, Bloodriot, Fauxreel, Hoital, Tharnok and if she could still play, which sadly she cannot, Lucia and so much other I am forgetting to mention. I wish you all a good day and Thank you for being awesome people and player.

Even if i do take a break feel free to poke me on my discord, or the forum If you need me for important event or wish for an exceptional log in.
But if such happens, expect an absence of my characters and rarer appearance of my account.

I have loads of mess to sort, i am tired, and mostly. Thank you for offering me bits of solace for my mind and soul.

Yugo
- Nalissa Cold
- Rolas Mirnt
- Shani

This is a decision i will consider, nothing is set in stone, but be warned if i leave for an extended period of time, you know why so such will not be a shocker.

Thank you and have a good day.

[Azroth]

Few things:

1) It's not the dark thoughts and impulses that is the problem, it's what you do with them. Try and find other grounding methods if you do take a step away from here.

2) If you blame yourself for any of this? don't. That is the most destructive thing one can do to themselves. I know family who live with demons day by day. Things in this life are not worth beating yourself up about.

3) Good luck to you! The world is not a nice place to many. We all have our struggles.

[DM Dreamer]

Rooting for you in both worlds. <3

[Xorena]

I am sorry for the pain you feel, and for your losses. I lost my father last year and it still hurts.

I am responding because I see something concerning in your words:

Even if this isn't of your business to care or show empathy or sympathy for I am tired and wish I could have at times have a sleep from which i would never wake up.

Here's a link suicide hotlines for many countries: https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines

Keep in mind that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Take care of yourself.

[Shadowspinner70]

Yugo, please, please, please take care of yourself. Perle is right in pointing out that your words are extremely concerning. Sort yourself the best you can, then come back if you'd like to. In the meantime, draw, write, find literally anything else to express yourself and your pain from your losses.

It's not my business as to whether you do, but if you can, see someone. I'm an advocate for literally everyone seeing a counselor if they can, because we all need it. This is from a woman who, let's be frank here, is a product of her times. Now to get off my soap box.

Please, take care of yourself. Once you do, then Aunrae and Nalissa can hang out again, and only then. ^^

[yyj]

Yugo you are a brave and strong person, I pray for you and feel free to reach on discord anytime if you want to talk or play a videogame.

I send you love and good vibes as a remainder that no matter how dark times get the sun always rises.

[Yugo]

I appreciate the support I know myself and not the first i went through such state. I humbly thank you for your support

However I have a family here at home that are people i would die for and do anything for, friends who are supportive and close so stay reassured I am not alone. I will take the comfort you all give me and am humbled by it, but I know myself well. So no, do not worry for my state, pain is natural and it always heal with time, only way it will soothe and cleanse itself never totally, but progressivly.

So stay reassured, I am to stubborn for my own good and last thing i will do is fall if can still stand and fight.
Not the first time, not the last i will have obstacles to face.

[Heretic]

RL comes first. Take care and I hope things get better, thanks for your RP with House Divine and overall RP in general. There will always be a place for you here if you chose to return.

[Moridin]

RL always takes precedence.