QonoSwij valQiS SanejmeH (Journal of Valqis Sanejmeh)

[Duster47]

Day 242

Emrys rited me this letter.

*neatly written letter pasted onto the page*

Dear Val,

I was hoping to get the chance to speak to you in person rather than through a letter, but, as is often the case, things don’t turn out the way we want. I wish to apologize to you for my extended absence, which unfortunately will be even longer. I know you must bear a measure of anger and frustration towards me, which is completely acceptable. But please know that it is not my desire to cause you pain or sadness. You may find it difficult to believe, but the reason why I have been away from you for so long is because I love you. You are well aware of the demons that plague my life… that hold my very soul. For the past few months, I have been striving to free myself from their hold. And it has all been for you because you deserve more than a damned man. You may believe that I can do such by remaining in Candlekeep; you may even wish to aid me in this. But Candlekeep does not possess all I need, and I must do this alone. When I first began truly searching for a way to free myself, I made the mistake of accepting help from another. A good friend of mine not only offered but vowed to aid me against my demons, and I gave in to her wishes. Now… she is gone. I will not allow any more of my friends or those I care for to be lost simply for my sake. I especially cannot lose you to it.

I will not lie to you; there is a chance that I will perish in my attempts to do this. But again, I have to do this not only for myself but for you and others as well. Believe me when I say I wish I could be with you, to gaze into your deep and mystifying eyes, to brush my hand through your lush hair, to feel your soft skin against mine. But if I were to remain with you in my present state, I would be a danger to us both. That is why I must free myself from these demons; why I must free my very soul or at the very least try to do so.

I will always be thinking of you while I am away. To not do so is impossible. While I am gone, I urge you to be safe and to keep your friends close to you, for it is a luxury that not all possess. And if I never make it back, I wish that you live a full and vibrant life in which you find true happiness. Your happiness was and always will be more important than my own.

Qabangbejtah, bangwi

~ Emrys

I feel better now that I am knowing why he leaved. I respekt his choise to try to defeat his demons, but I do not like it. I hate that I am angry with him. I miss how his blue eyes watch me. I miss his hand in my hair. I miss his touch on my skin. My heart is feeling empty.

I need to kry now.

[Duster47]

Day 244

Festival day at Candlekeep. I singed my song about Eldorado. I beleve every person enjoyed my performanse.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 245

Today I helped Gate Warden Joan and Somir trak lost gard Varavain to reked building in the wyvern lands. We finded Varavain changed into stone statue with a dagger stabbed into his chest. Joan knowed the dagger to be type used by assassins from Thay. Why did assassins want Varvain dead?

Joan tried to pull the dagger from the statu but it breaked off in her hand. I can see now that it is trap! Fortunately, she is able to drop it before it can cause us any injurys.

We carryed the statu with us. We offered the dwarvs the nife if they can remove it from the stone. It seem to be adamatine which is very treasured metal. They agree but are not ready. Need to cause their forge to bekome very hot. So, we carryed Varavain statu bak to Candlekeep. The dwarves will kome for the statu when they are ready. I hope they can remove the nife from varavain. Then magik kan heal him and change him from stone into flesh, bone, and blood again.

magik is both blessing and kurse.

/s/ Valqis

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Varavain is living again. He does not remember being turned into stone or that some person stabbed him with Thay assassin dagger. Joan seem to know something about these fakts so she can tell him.

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Day 248

Today I meeted Sir Justin Krownsilver, Kommander of the Flaming Fist. At first he did not know who I am bekause I weared mask during the show. He talked to me with respekt.

Justin telled me that he really enjoyed my performanse "...with all your charms and grase!" and kissed my hand. Then he telled me that he want to dine with me. Sure I telled him yes. Dine with noble soldier leader of the Flaming Fist? Yes! My mother and father would sure to want this honor for me.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 250

The plases I traveled. The things I seen. So many fakts to rekord! We tested the artifakt today. Or was it yesterday? I must rite the report for the Guide but I want to rite something here. This is very important to rekord in my own journal.

Reader Arturo, myself, Joan, guards Firavain and idiot Nathan, akolyte Alison, and Vladimire begined our journey to far away plases.

Arturo aktivated the artifakt. Brite lite kover me. I feel I am moving but kan not see or feel the ground under my feet. Soon after, maybe one minute later, the brite lite faded. All of us are standing near together as before but now we are in thik forest. It is nite. I feel the hot air around us. I hear bugs flying around us. Maybe we are in the jungles of Chult? Or maybe we are on my own home islands?! But no.

I searched nut's nite sky to guide me. But the stars are not korekt. Then I see'ed them... them! three moons. not Qonsu' (Selune) or it's wake (the Tears), but three moons. Later, two suns will bring morning lite to day. I think how kan this be possible?! Where in Realmspace did Arturo and the artikaft carry us?!

The qiet nite did not last long. Soon big and biger lizards find us. One killed Arturo. Now I carry the artifakt. I try to use it but nothing happened. So we waited in the hot jungle and defended ourselves from more lizards.

After maybe 4 or 5 hours, after suns rise, the artifakt kause tap and klik sounds. It kannot be soon enuf because dragon size lizard finded us. I aktivated the artifakt....

Brite lite kovers me same as before.

I open my eyes and now we stand together in room full of books. Where are we now? The others search outside the room finding more rooms.

One Old human male named Horuse finded us. We learn that we are now in place named Vault 72 on world named Nersus orbiting one sun. Vault 72 is underground plase where Horase and 20 other humans are hiding from enemy of Konstrukt machines.

We explain that we will soon leave. The artifakt is working the same aktions as before. It need time to bekome ready to use again.

Horase is wanting us to take all 21 of them with us before the konstrukts find them and kill them all. We agree to take them. Again we wait.

But it is not qiet for long. Lites flash. Horns sound. We are being attaked.

One wall fall away and metal spider shape things kome from the hole. We destroy them but soon more kome from the hole. Horase leaded us away but more metal things and bigger metal things followed us. We retreated. The dragon size lizard was terrible, but these konstrukts are more more terrible!

Horase is killed but we kontinue our path into another book room. But we are late. There are dead persons and smashed konstrukt machines all around us. I hear the arkifakt kause tap and klik sounds.

There are no persons to take with us. They are all dead. So, we all take books and food from the room. I aktivate the artifakt. Brite lite around us... I feel I am moving... where will it carry us next?!

I open my eyes and now we stand in small room. We search the area and find our way outside. I feel I komed here before... the plase is Candlekeep!

But no... soon many orks sirkle around us. They can talk kommon! They do not attak us and seem konfused that we also can talk kommon. Where are we?!

Torchkeep. Not Candlekeep. Torchkeep. The Infirmary is now named Hurt House. The library sign read Book House. I search Nut's nite sky but again the stars are not in their korekt plase. We are on another world. Again.

We deside it is bet'r to not fite the orks. They seem reasonable. Logikal. Did I bekome krazy? No. They plase all of us in the jail.

Soon after their Guide, who seem to be ork version of our own Guide Valerius (how can this be true?) kome to us. We talk. He released us from the jail. More orks kome into the room and seem similar to us. Orks similar to Joan, Alison, Firavian and one even wear armor similar to me?! Very strang.

Then I hear the artifakt kause tap and klik sounds. I tell the others we should leave. I aktivate it. Brite lite kovers me...

I open my eyes are we are together again. Forturnate no orks are with us. Now we stand in big room with large fire sirkle floating above the floor. It seem similar to portal magik.

Loud voise calls out to us... "Point of origin Abeir-Toril (our home world). Point of last jump Tuskran." We search the area and it seem to be some persons home. We soon learn the voise is the big fire ring. It named itself the Path of Many and the artifakt bringed us to it.

We talk to the voise and learn it and the artifakt are for plane walking from one plane or plase to another plane or plase. The fire ring is realmspace map.

The first idea that forms in my mind is how kan I aim the artifakt to carry me to Qarnaq?

But my islands must wait. So, I learn how to adjust the artifakt to target our Candlekeep on Toril so we can return to where we belong.

Soon after, the artifakt klik again. We deside it is best that we leave then return again with skolars from Candlekeep. They can study this plase. I want to return to learn how to read the map and target plases to travel. How to target my islands.

Some day...

We all returned safe to Candlekeep. Exsept reader Arturo. He died. but at Candlekeep books (or ideas and history) are more important than any one person. we returned with many books and some fruit from three different worlds. The Keeper of the Tombs will sure to be proud of us. I am proud of me and us. I am sorry that Arturo is dead.

/s/ Valqis, Seeker and traveler to distant worlds.

[Duster47]

Day 251

Yesterday Merielle and Tessian bekome marryed. They are now husband and wife. I am happy for them. I knowed many yestermonths ago that they should be together. Now they are together. But she forgetted that fact.

Sir Justin Krownsilver also attended the wedding. He sitted next to me at the party after the wedding. We talked and he seem to be very honorable. After the party he gived me tour of the Flamming Fist fort. I sitted on his offise chair.

I learned more about Justin. He is from Kormyr and earned rank of nite soldier from their king. He is noble! He is also 32 years old. He seem to have big interest in me.

"I like my women with a little spirit in them. Full of passion and fire." If he only knowed the truth. My fire can burn hot. But I am not harlot. Would man similar to Sir Justin beleve me to be harlot? He kissed my hand.

My mind rase to diferent ideas. Slow down! "I am hungry. Do you like cherry pie?"

Yes. We talked more and eated desert at the Blade and Stars tavern. Then he leaved me there, alone, for the nite.

I wonder if I will see him again?

Remember what Juliandra telled me. Go slow. Do not repeat mistakes.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 252

I am so tired. Vlad taked me far south again into the mountains. We explored many Nashkel Mines and caves. He showed me bloked plase in the caves that lead to the underdark. Home of the Drow! I sure do not want to travel there. No star filled nite sky is no plase for me.


This lava cave remind me of Volcano Island at Qarnaq.

We fited many monsters and killed some demon kreature. Vlad is very strong soldier. I feel very safe in battle when I am near to him.



I painted these piktures from sketchs I drawed very fast before more snow giants finded us.

Then we traveled more south into the snow kovered mountains. We stop at safe plase and Vlad begin to roll snow into balls. He formed very big ball then two smaller snowballs ontop of the first snowball. He add parts of arrows to form arms and nose. Snowman. I never see'ed Snowman before. Then we throwed small snow balls at each other. I cannot form tite snowball. Vlad is near friend to me....

And he want to be very much more. He asked me what do I beleve will cause him to be happy?

I telled him that he will want for me to love him. I give myself to him. Bekome his wife. That he bekome the father of our childrens. We return together to my home islands.

"Guess you know me very well after all." he sayed.

But I do not want give him my heart. I want only for us to be friend.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 256

I am invited to party as Justin's guest. This is very big honor.

*invitation pasted onto the page*

Lady Seeker Valquis Sanejmeh of Candlekeep

M'lady

His Lordship the Right Honourable Sir Justin Crownsilver, Order of The Flame, personnaly invites you to attend a formal dinner to welcome home returing Officers from Chult as his guest of honour.

His Grace the Duke has expressly forbidden the bearing of arms at the reception save for the express purpose of ceremonial attire.

First Captain Ardias Guthrun
Flaming Fist Mercenary Company
The Citadel
Baldur's Gate

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Day 259

That party was sure to be the most terrible party ever.

It begined very nise. I weared new pretty dress and fixed my hair and face to be as perfekt as I can. Sir Justin looked very handsome.

Jonas is there and he bringed Merielle. She kontinue to not speak with me. I do not know why. Guide Valerius is there. Ivaris and two elf females I do not know. Joan and Somir. And Duke Eltan. He sitted next to Justin then me. I feel so honored to be here if only bekause Justin asked me.

This meeting remind me of formal meetings with my father and the Island Kounsil. Sit and be see'ed. Do not talk exsept when someone ask you qestion. Smile. Look pretty. I kan do that. Yes... that is why I am here.

So, the Duke gived toast and we drinked wine. I beleve the party will now begin. But no. He talked about danger around the sity and what aktions kould end the danger. I sit qiet and drink my wine and smile.

They talk for maybe 2 hours! I forget how many full wine glasses I drinked. The Duke leaved. I am so hungry now. The waitress served our food to us. I take one or two bites then guard opened the door. The bridge is being attaked by demon kreatures!

Yes, I know diary that I am then sitting in meeting with Flaming Fist persons. It is there job and duty to defend Baldurs Gate. But why now did the enemy attak? Never begin battle when you are hungry...

They all leaved and I followed them with Valerius.

There is battle at the bridge. I can only watch. My bow is not with me and my pretty dress is sure not armor.

After the battle I see'ed him. Emrys. He leaved me two yestermonths past and now he returns. We talk for short time. He is healthy. But he did not end his kurse. Why not?! It can wait.

My duty now is with Justin. I am his guest. Justin walked me bak to the sity. This nite was terrible for him. Many persons died defeating the demons attak.

Terrible party. Terrible nite. Eltan is korekt. Evil is all around us.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 260

I talked to Emrys today at kandlekeep. He did not end his kurse. He sayed that it is komplikated. He need to figure somethings out. He need to find what is important to him.

I am vinish with him. I am sad and angry again. Repeat my emotions from yestermonths when he leaved me. Why did he need to return here?! Why do I feel this sad about it all again?

/s/ Valqis

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Day 264, Year 948 (Eleint 10, 1254)

My ship and krew leaved our Qarnaq Islands 1 yesteryear past. I wonder if the other 2 ships finded anything and returned safe to Qarnaq? I wonder if they kontinue to remember my sinked ship and dead krew?

I feel terrible. My emotions pull me down into the dark. And it only bekome more worse.

Also yesterday, Sir Justin komed to Candlekeep to see me. Me.

I remember his words. "I cannot stop thinking about you. From the moment I first see you at the theater, even before I knew who you are. I have been smitten."

Smitten. Strong feelings. For me. Stupid me.

He asked me if I am smitten with him. Why do I not tell him the truth? Why did I tell him about my ended relations with Emrys? Why did I not stop my foolish mouth and only say, "yes"?!

Poor Justin. I can see him bekome embarase. Now he feel same as fool. I am sure to be fool. "I should go." He leaved. Alone again.

Nut, please .... show me path from this dark plase! Qonsu', please return to the nite sky. I kannot kontinue for much more time in this dark plase.

[Duster47]

Day 265

My new song telled how i feel. It is too late for regrets. I need to bekome strong again.

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Day 268

Vlad sended me flowers, arrows, and chokolat. That was very nise of him. Qonsu' return to the nite sky. I am feeling better about my life.

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Day 270

I traded letters with Justin today. He rited, "For I do ache not seeing such beauty..." then "... I must most regrettably stay afar." His words konfuse me. We need to talk.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 271

I returned to the sity today. Selis telled me that we will talk over drinks at the tavern. We walked to the tavern and standing there is Justin. Waiting for us. Waiting for me. Selis sayed she did not knowing we will find Justin there. I did not beleving her words, but I am glad she bringed me to him. Selis then leaved us. I will talk to her about this later!

We sayed hello. Then Justin taked me into his strong arms and kissed me. I cannot eskape his strong hold on me. He kissed me long. Firm. I did not want to eskape.

He relesed me saying, "Why fite it?"
"Fite what?" I teased him, but I am knowing his topik.

Journal, I taste him on my wet lips. I feel my blood run hot. But my mind kontinue kontroling me. Do not rush into anything.

We go into the tavern and shared pie, wine, and storys about our past. He is knowing now that I need to return home to komplete my ship's mission.

We leaved the tavern and walked to the Duchal Palase and up into one of the towers. I never see'ed the sity from tall plase such as this. The roof tops are below us and the sky above us. Very Qiet. Very pretty.

Then he kissed me again. I kan feel that he is wanting me. I kissed him.
"I cannot fokus. I am bekoming lost in you."
"I do not beleving the the Flaming Fist leader is bekoming lost in simple girl."
"You are not simple. Far from it."

He is korekt. I am not simple girl. But, what do he want from me? To bekome his wife and mother of his childs? Is there more to his feelings for me than being "smitten"?

I do not know. Soon after he leaved to his soldier dutys. I leaved for my Candlekeep dutys. When will I see him again? When will I kiss him again?

Journal and mind, do not allow my heart to kontrol me with Justin. I do not want to repeat my mistakes that I did before. I do not want to fokus on the feeling that I get from some male wanting me. Or kissing me. Remind me that the fire that burn hot also burn fast. Slow the fire to my heart and kool my burning blood. There must be more about romansing than bekoming smitten.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

I am not sure what date is today. I travel there and return to here many times. It teached me many fakts about how to kontrol it. I do not beleve I can aim it akurate enuf to land on my home islands. Not now. Maybe later.

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Day 276, jaj rap yoblaHmeH. Eqinox. First day of fall in Faerun.

I measured the sun rise and sun set angles.

The White Mask Theater opened today. Selis hosted dinner party there. She invited Justin but he did not attend. Solus kooked the food that tasted very good. I mite not eat again for 3 days.

I have my own room at the theater. It is very nise.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 277

Why do I try? Vlad can be very nise or he can be very angry. Nice flowers one day then angry letter another day. Maybe I do not try enuf to be good friend? Maybe he expekt more from me than I can or want to give him?

I did try today. If he did not want my thank you for the flowers, arrows, and chokolat, then that is his problem.

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Day 279

Rain and litening is all around me. It must feel tragik. Rain.... no... thunder! Why did I not think of that word before? The song will be better the next time I sing it.

That is how I feeled about our relationship falled apart. Now Emrys is knowing it also. He end his job with Candlekeep. He seem to be lost. I hope he can find his star to guide him.

**Where is Justin? Did he leave for some mission? Males. Why do I care?!**

It do not matter. I will return to it tomorrow.

/s/ lonely girl

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Day 287

I returned to kandlekeep. I wonder if any persons see'ed that I am not here for 8 days. I know what I am learning is important. But it is also big sekret so I cannot talk about it.

The talking map teached me more fakts and theorys. I understand it now. Valerius is trusting me with it.

**Justin did not reply to my letter. Where is he?! Maybe the fire in his heart died for me? Burn hot and fast... then die.**

/s/ Valqis

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** The text is struck through with slightly different shade of ink **

[Duster47]

I visited the theater today. It is empty. Selis is gone. Solus is gone. I talked to Alison but she did not sayed where are the other persons. I sleeped in my room for the nite but I do not want to be alone in this big plase. Tomorrow I will return to Candlekeep.

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Day 291

A Flaming Fist soldier bringed me letter today about Justin. Their ship was attaked at sea. Some of the krew leaved the ship with the passengers. Justin and other soldiers stay on the ship to defend it. Then their ship exploded and sinked. They did not find any survivors in the water.

Journal, I was only with Justin for three dates. I enjoyed our time together. But, I wanted to learn more about him. Now he is dead in the sea. I know his death was honorable but that fakt do not cause my heart to be feeling better about it. I was wanting more time for us. But now I only have small memorys of us.

Before his end, he thinked about me. He gived his family ring to one of the krew that leaved their ship with orders to give it to me. I am feeling his honor for me. I feel humble that he chosed me. I will keep his ring safe and wear it to remember him.

Qonsu' is shining with only sliver of itself before the rising Hov'a'. My heart is feeling empty. I am alone again far from home.

/s/ Valqis, former future wife of Sir Justin Crownsilver of the Flaming Fist

** Previous entries complaining about Sir J's recent unexplained absence are lined out with slightly different shade of ink than the original script **

[Duster47]

Day 294

Journal, when I waked this day, I beleved it will only be another day. First there was another Candlekeep story and song Festival. I singed my "Sailing to Hathor" song in honor of Justin. Also, I am wearing his ring for ten days.

After the Festival Guide Valerius asked me to walk and talk with him. I am surprised. We go inside the Library. I am more surprised.

Next, he asked me, "How are are you enjoying your time at Candlekeep?"

My mind wonders why is he asking me this question? In all of my time at Candlekeep, no leader ever asked question about me. I telled him that I am enjoying my time here. I am glad to be part of something.

More questions and answers and walking between halls and halls of books.

"How strong is your devotion to Candlekeep? Do you carry our mission inside yourself?"

Journal, I will not lie. I joined Candlekeep so I can learn more about Faerun then return to my home islands to complete my ship's mission.

I answered him with the truth. "I want to travel to my home islands. I want my family to know that i am living. I want them to know that my krew did not die for no reason. I want the orakles to know that their visions are true. There is are more lands on this world. We are not alone! But now after six months working for Candlekeep I feel it is my other home away from my island home."

He telled me that we will try to skry my family. Journal, this skry is some magik that I do not understand exsept that it is used to find some person and teleport to them. I do not know when we will try this aktion. I hope it will be soon.

Then I telled him that I continue to learn more about the artifakt and how to aim it. I do not beleve I can aim it now onto my home islands. I would sure miss and land in the sea.

Then he sayed, "But this is not the reason I am talking to you." What? There is more?!

"I am here to offer you a promotion." This is big honor for me. "Your ability to take command and see the whole group to safety thru the multiverse was big reason to promote you."

I telled him yes. I aksepted his offer.

I am now Reader of Candlekeep. My new dutys are to lead and teach the new acolytes, lead other Seekers, and lead projekts. My projekt is to research the artifakt. My House will be very proud of me.

/s/ Reader Valqis

[Duster47]

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The Festival today was terrible. Guide Valerius maked it into contest today. Ugly female (or male with breasts?) performed ... I am being nise ... song about desire for females to show their breasts. Then guard Firavain attaked the person.

Fites. Bad performanses. Drunked persons. I beleve Candlekeep can soon bekome the next Luskan.

But, why did I not continue siting in my chair? No. I feeled that I need to share with the audiense a good performanse and good song. I singed from my heart about my big mistake. But the idiots do not want good performanse. They want a song about bare breasts. Maybe they would chosed my song if I taked off my dress? Idiots.

I feel embarass for me. I feel embarass for Valerius. I feel embarass for Candlekeep.

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Day 304

I am studying magic to understand it. I know better how to cause magic but no person can explain why I am able to cause magic. Some monks beleve it is gift from Nut because I did not study magic to be able to cause magic. Maybe the priestesses at the Selune' temple in Waterdeep can help me?

I heared storys about more undead attaks on the roads. Evil is all around us. How can I go home to my safe islands?

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 305

Flaming Fist Captain Rokshanks visited me today. He telled me that he is beleving that Justin is living. I hope this rumor is true.

I beleve that one yesteryear past that my ship leaved the Lantan Islands. It do not seem that happened that long ago.

/s/ Valqis

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Journal, I am very happy today. Gide valerius kreated a skrying portal to my mother akross 3000 miles of sea. Valerius created the skrying portal using the earrings that my mother gived to me and strong magik. It feeled strange to see my mother, father and brother and hear their voices thru the portal but they cannot see or hear us.

Then Valerius telled me that he can cause a "Send" Spell to tell my mother a message. I did not know this can be possible. Also, my mother speaks Qarnaq language, not this common language that I now rite. So i rited message for Valerius with common letters but in Qarnaq language.

It seem that Valerius speaked magik words for one hour. He burned some things then speaked more words. Then he sended my message. "Mother, this is your dauter Valqis. I am living. Ship sinked one yesteryear ago. I am safe. No ship for sail home. Tell the Orakles at Saqqara' that we are not alone."

We can see my mother thru the skrying portal. She bekome surprised and konfused. She heared my message from Valerius' Send spell! My father seem to beleve that my mother is krazy. I beleve I would share his idea. But I know the truth.

Soon after, Valerius speak in my language what my mother is saying. "Valqis?! Where are you? We beleve you are dead! When are you koming home? We love you and miss you and ...." nothing more.

I am so happy. Valerius telled me that he kreate more Send spells but he need more time to prefare his magik. So I rited two messages for him to send when he is ready. One message is for the Orakles to know my plase on Toril. The other is for my family similar to the first message. I hope my mother will beleve the messages and she is not bekoming crazy.

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I talked to Vladimire today. He seem to be healthy but is sad or mad or ... bored? I telled him that I will be traveling more with the "magik stik". I wonder if I will see him again? I wonder if he will want to see me again?

No more news about Justin. Only rumors.

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Day 307

Journal, One yesteryear ago my ship sinked. 12 krew died that day. I rited the names of my dead krew on my arms to remember them and their sakrafise. I shooted 12 burning arrows into the sea to honor them. Now I am liveing alone in this distant land.

/s/ Valqis SanejmeH, Navigator of the sinked Qarnaq ship Spiked Fist

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Valerius sended two more magik messages to my mother. I hope my father is not beleving that she is crazy.

Valerius telled me that he can kreate portal to my home islands. We will try soon. I need to gather my books and maps. Valerius will allow me to take the artifakt with me. I can use it to return to Candlekeep when I am ready.

I will soon travel home.

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Day 310

Journal, I will leave you here today at Candlekeep. I rited kopy of you in qarnaq Hol mu'mey to take home with me. Then my family can read my storys of my yesteryear near Baldurs Gate.

I can return with the artifakt. I do not know when.

Nut's nite sky will gide me home.

/s/ Valqis Sanejmeh, Reader of Candlekeep, former Navigator of Qarnaq ship Spiked Fist

[Duster47]

Day 315

Journal, I returned to Candlekeep today to get some books from the library. I know I should rite more but I must return to my home islands.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 319

I learned to aim the artifakt so that I can send myself between my father's village and to the temple at Saqqara'. Other Candlekeep persons learned how to konnekt Candlekeep's portal with the Map of Many demiplane. I kontinue haveing the artifakt.

I am translating many books about Fauern into my language so that other persons can know about the distant land to the east. Tomorrow I will tell the story of my journey near Baldurs Gate to the High Counsil. This is very big honor for me and my family.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 334 (Uktar 19)

Journal, it is not easy for me to rite these words.

Three ships with 39 krew leaved my home islands to find lands to the east and prove that we are not alone on Toril. Today I am the only person from all three ships that the orakles know for sertain kontinue living today. Only me.

The orakles telled me that they kan sometimes see followers of Nut in their dreams. All three ship's navigators are followers of Nut. They see'ed me in their dreams. They knowed that my ship finded islands. They knowed that my ship sinked. They knowed that I was alone in the sea. They prayed for Nut to guide some ship to find me. Then one ship did find me. Sended by Nut to save me. Save me. Me.

Why me? Bekause I was borned under full moon on the spring eqinox day. Bekause they teached me to use Nut's sky to guide me. Bekause the orakles knowed I will travel to far away plases. Bekause Nut blessed me with magik so I can better survive. Bekause SanejmeH, I-explore-for-you, is me.

What happened to the other two ships? The orakles beleve the ship that sailed the south kourse finded land. The orakles see'ed hot jungle similar to our home islands. Then they see'ed nothing. Maybe their ship finded Chult? I wonder if any of the krew is surviveing there but cannot sail home? All the orakles see'ed from the north kourse ship's navigator was sea. Then storms. Then nothing.

Journal, if it was not for Nut and the faith of the orakles in me, then I will sertain be dead. This is huge honor and responsibility that they plased on me. They beleve I am strong enuv. Now I need to beleve in me.

The festival will begin soon so I will stop riting now. I will return to Saqqara after the festival. I do not know when I will return to Candlekeep.

/s/ Valqis

[Duster47]

Day 22 Year 949 (Hammer 10, 1246)

Journal, I returned to you and Faerun. It feel strang to rite these kommon words again. Candlekeep seem empty to me. Valerius, Joan, Alison, and others are not here. Some elf mage named Vauk is our gide. I wonder when Valerius will return from his long walk?

I wonder who else is living? Sir Justin? I kontinue having his ring. If he is living, will he want his ring return to himself? Did Emrys find his purpose? Did Vlad empty the idea of me from his heart? So many questions. I better begin searching for answers.

The orakles want me to learn more about the history of our people. They believe the answers mite be in Mulhorund. I have the artifakt so it is easy for me to travel to my home islands. And travel far away to Mulhorund. But where do I aim?

It is winter here. I feel the kold in my bones.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 25

I talked to Joan today. She seem to be healthy. She telled me Emrys is dead. She did not know when, where, why or what killed him. I feel empty plase in my heart. I hope he died searching for himself.

/s/ Valqis

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Day 35

I meeted Justin today. He seem to be healthy and kontinue to be smitten with me. I offered his ring for return to him. But he is wanting me to keep it. Maybe I will bekome kustom to it... and agree to be his wife?

I want to be sure his ring will fit us. I do not want to rush into one other romanse and repeat my mistake.

He walked with me returning me to Candlekeep. We see-ed Alison on the road. I am glad to see her. I am not sure she and Justin are friends.

I wonder when I will see him again?

/s/ Valqis

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Day 36

Stupid me. Why do I bekome tangled with dangers around Baldurs Gate? Valerius, Vauk, Merielle, Jonas, and more persons searched for missing ngome named Bently who owns the Fair Arms Inn.

Two yesterdays past Vauk asked me to see Valerius and others skry for Bently. I did not understand why this konsern me, but I follow my orders. They finded Bently and Valerius kreated portal to travel us there. Now I now why they need me; to return us fast and safe to Candlekeep with the artifakt.

The portal taked us into wet kaves. Many enemys attaked us but we defeated them. Journal, I admit I enjoyed feeling the fire burn in my blood from the kombat. We did not find the ngome, but we did find fakts to trak him.

Yesterday, Valerius and I talked to the Map of Many to lokate Bently. I used the artifact to take us there. It is not magik so it kannot be defeated with magik.

But, same as before, we did not surprise the enemy. The kombat was fast with big danger to all of us. We fited one ise dragon. The battle was not taking us to viktory. I do not know what komed into my mind, but I feel strong power inside of me and I charged at the dragon with all of my heart and swinging axe.

Journal, I standed under the dragon, dodging its giant foots. Its toes are same size as me. I chopped at it and feeled the power of Nut burning in my blood. Seqmet sure gided us to viktory. The dragon layed dead near to me. I am living. I feel the kold ise under my foots in the now qiet kave. I hurt all over my body.

We searched the area and finded Bently. Then I returned us fast and safe to Candlekeep.

The others did not explain to me why this ngome Bently is important. I beleve it konsern red wizards and dragon kults. If this ideas are true, then I beleve there can soon be big danger for all of the Western Heartlands.

Journal, tomorrow I will return to Qarnaq.

/s/ Valqis, Dragon fiter

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Journal, today I returned from Armarna. My sister Mara is now mother of baby male. She and her husband seem to be very proud. Mara is lucky female. Sometime I wish I can trade my plase with her.

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Day 45

Ten days past Qiet. I did not heared rumors about Red Wizards or dragon kults. Maybe Jonas is leading the others to save us all? If this is true, they seem to not need me. Maybe I am not important for them? Why do I konsern myself with them? Journal, help me remember my mission is first to the Orakles and my home islands.

Today I talked to Randi. Randi is the person that singed that song about vemale's bossoms to win the Festival many yestermonths past. Thinking about it now, it was very funny song.

I know she (or he?!) can bekome big danger so I will be careful to not komplete trust her. But I also know that kursed Randi is helping gide Valerius with something. Also, more important to me, Randi travel to Mulhorund to see her friend Leona. Maybe Randi can gide me there on some future journey?

/s/ Valqis, alone again.

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Day 47

I am glad Alison is near for us to talk. Talking with her help me better understanding my emotions. Alison is planning to marry elf male named Aerion. He is not very pretty but more important is he seem to be honorable to her. I do not beleve I can love elf male. I hope that she is not kreating future mistake with Aerion. I hope that she is knowing the different between being in love and being in love with the idea of love. Maybe I need to show her what Juliandra rited for me many yestermonths past. I wonder if Juliandra is living?

I want to see Justin again. I beleve I am missing him.

/s/ Valqis